Pistanthrophobia

earning his trust

Tw: eating disorder

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After Kaiden helped me with my little fallout. He got off me and walked out without saying a word. Our relationship...is still on the bumpy side meaning me not trusting him and him not liking me because I don’t trust him. You would think the fix to that problem would be for me to try and trust him

It’s just... I have a fear of trusting others

Flashback

“This is Saire weathersby, and he’ll be staying here with you all”

I was huddled in the corner by the front door trying to disappear away from all the new people while my officer talked to them.A few of them tried to smile, wave, or approach me. I just glared at them or backed away. 

“Okay saire I’m gonna go now”

I didn’t answer, or nod since I don’t trust him either. He sighed before opening and csig the front door. I kept my gaze on the wooden floor, because why not? I mean yeah it may not be as attractive as the men standing before me, but at least it won’t pesture me with questions.

“So saire” 

One of the guys spoked, but I didn’t really pay attention when they introduced themselves. I think I only really got Jackson, and Ryan. I heard someone step towards me and instantly backed further into the corner. The guy sighed and stepped away from again

“Well...umm”

He seemed like he didn’t know what to do. I would rather not be here while they whisper about what to do with me. So I shrunk into myself while walking up the stairs. I heard two pairs of footsteps behind me and turned around to see Jackson, and Ryan. They smiled at me, but I once again glared which did not faze them

“So where are you going” Ryan asked

I didn’t answer and just kept my body tiff and onguard not trusting a single one of these people...for all I know the could be like sa-

flash back over

“-ire”

I looked up to half of my name being called and all eyes on me.

“Are you going to eat?”

I looked towards my plate then at everyone else’s plates. My plate in the beginning had a smaller amount than anyone else, but now I had more than everyone else.

“I-I-I-”

“It’s okay” Micheal smiled. “Just eat a little bit for me, okay?”

I glanced at my plate and wanted to vomit...it looked like so much yet was so little. I looked towards kaiden who was already staring at me. Immediately I looked away letting my face go red. He kept his gaze on me like he was challenging me...threatening me to not eat. 

Well that at least shows he cares...in his own little way. I picked up the mashed potatoes and nibbled on it. Most of the guys had gotten up and left. It was just me, Ryan, and Kaiden. I think Kaiden tried to leave, but Michael forced him to stay. They really won’t give us a rest.

Ryan was on his phone, my gaze was still on my plate now nibbling on a porkchop. Kaiden’s gaze was still on me and I looked at him when he cleared his throat.

“Kitten”

The nickname rang through my ears like a song. I looked away from him...bad move.

“Kitten” it sounded demanding. Like he wanted my gaze. I looked towards him again keeping my eyes on the beautiful flower behind him. He glanced at my plate then back towards me.

“You full?” he asked 

I nodded and dropped my head ashamed that he has to see me like this. Something that could be used against me. He had no emotion on his face the entire time...lips pressed in a straight line eyes emotionless

“We don’t need you throwing up now do we? That’s fine you can eat the rest as a midnight snack.” 

He stood up, walked behind my chair and leaned over my body to grab my plate. I felt his breath against my ear before he wrapped my plate up for me. 

Ryan watched the whole thing…

Reese’s POV

“Earn his trust”

“Que?” he responded

“Saire...you need him to trust you”

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“Oh”

Kaiden’s POV

I’m doing it on purpose...but some part of me likes it, and likes him.