"Being pregnant won't excuse you for being weak. Get up!"
With sweats all over my body, I got up. We're getting more and more intense in training that even if I'm feeling strains in my body, I decided to go on.
Commandment did not change. He's still as strict as ever, a perfectionist like mom.
" She needs to rest," wika ni Sin na hindi ko namalayang nasa loob na pala ng training ground.
" You're spoiling her too much. We're in training. Leave."
" It's fine Sin. I'm getting the hang of it," wika ko.
My body hurts a little but I'm feeling perfectly fine. Warm up lang 'to saken noon.
" Hindi siya nakatulog ng maayos kagabi. It's bad for my baby."
Nagsukatan sila ng tingin.
" I'm__."
" Let's call it a day, Nikka. Magpahinga ka na," putol ni Commandment sa sasabihin ko sana.
" Kumain ka na rin mamaya, magluluto ako," dugtong niya bago umalis.
Napangiti na lang ako habang pinagmasdan ang likod niyang paalis.
" Nagmamayabang ba sya sa harap ko?"
Napangiti na lang ako. Any actions would always be misunderstood if you're against a subjective jerk like Sin. Hay!
" Eh ano naman kung mas magaling sya magluto kaysa sa'yo? Mas magaling nga sya magluto kaysa saken eh. Isn't that a good thing though?"
He squinted his eyes and nodded as he get my point.
" We're not in charge in the kitchen since we're not good. Usapang tamad nga naman. Lika na nga."
Binuhat niya ako papasok sa loob ng hide out.
I sighed as I tried to take away Damon's image in my mind.
" Wala ka bang gagawin ngayon?" tanong ko sa kanya.
He shook his head.
" Everyone is preparing for the Last Code. Zhyieke and 6 are not exemptions."
" Diba dapat busy ka rin? You're the Second Crown. Hindi ba dapat may responsibility ka?"
He shrugged. I know instantly that he's neglecting his duties again. Kapag si Sin talaga tinatamad, wala talagang sinasanto.
I went into my room and let my blood circulation calm down. Pagkatapos ay pumasok na ako sa tub.
Napangiti na lang ako nang maaamoy ko ang mga body calming herbs na nakahalo sa tubig. Alam na alam talaga ni Sin ang kailangan ko.
Ang lamig ng tubig. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam!
As I wallow myself in the water, memories with my Pawns made me ride on my train of thoughts. Dati-rati sabay kaming naligo sa ilog o nagbihis. Hindi ko kailangan maworry tuwing period dahil may extra sila palagi. We could exhange girls' secrets and they could fully understand my unspoken thoughts. Nag-aaway kami sa maliit na bagay because they're not as considerate as the Zero officials. Hindi ko nakukuha ang mga gusto ko dahil hindi sila nagpaparaya para saken. We call ourselves players but we bicker on small things too. We gossip each other sometimes but we're always watching each others' back.
They are the sisters I never had.We have a bond that could never be broken.
Iba pa rin kapag sila ang kasama. And it was painful when I lost them. Para akong ina na nawalan ng mga anak at babaeng nawalan ng mga kaibigan at mga kapatid. Losing them feels too heavy but I let my tears drown me inside, as I plastered a smile. Hindi ko nakakalimutan kung paano sila namatay. I'm not rushing to make them pay. But I swear on their graves that their deaths won't be settled with a sorry.
