If you'd ask me what's running in my mind right now, it would take me hours to decide which of these random thoughts should I share.
I sighed.
I've been lying in my bed for thirty minutes. Normally, I should have succumb to slumber the very moment I smelled by blanket.
Napatingin ako sa cellphone. Gusto kong panoorin ang recorded video ng mga nangyayari sa doppelganger ko sa Zse Academy at bahay namin, but doing that would make me feel nostalgic even more. It would only give me too much homesick I can't guarantee to handle. I wanted to call Commandment too but that won't change anything, would it? I wanted to ask Damon about the mysterious groupchat but I know he won't answer.
What happened in room 908 is vivid in my memory still.
I want to take a brisk walk and breathe these thoughts out but the campus scenery won't help me. It would only make me sicker.
I've been captive in this four cornered room, with thoughts screaming and body going numb. I'm mentally lost. I've been finding a path but I found none.
Matamlay akong bumangon nang may kumatok.
" Hi Baby girl! uh? anong nangyari sa mukha mo? " bungad na tanong ni Sasuke saken. He's holding a black plastic bag on his right hand.
" Can I invite you in? "
" Eh? Why? "
I opened my door wider.
" Pasok ka na bago pa magbago ang isip ko. Why are you here anyway? "
He squatted on the floor.
" Damon told me to bring this tea for you ."
I took the plastic and check its content.
" May puting usok ba ang sumapi sa kanya? Para saan 'to? "
" Ewan ko. Hindi naman siguro yan lason. Ba't ang tamlay mo? "
I shrugged.
" I don't know ."
He look at me intently and gave me a comforting smile.
" I miss my home too ."
I met his gaze. How did he read my mind? Did he read my mind or is it because we've been feeling and thinking the same the whole time?
" I miss my daughter. I __."
" Wait may anak ka na? "
" Yep. I had her when I was 18, excited ako masyado haha."
I gasped, unable to believe what he just said. It's not like I'm judging his age. He's just too immature to be a dad. Haha
" Ilang taon na sya ngayon?"
" She's 6 ."
An image of a girl flashed in my mind. Ang imaginative ko na ata masyado.
" I'm not supposed to tell you my story but ,... my baby girl back there, she's the most beautiful mistake I ever had."
I could see the glimpse of happiness in his eyes, but those happiness were mixed with sadness and longing in some way.
" Familiar ba sa'yo ang Grezo Companies? "
"Yung sikat na footwear company? Bakit? "
" That was owned by our family ."
His confession made my eyes widened . Ang yaman pala ng lokong to!
" When my parents heard that I impregnated my woman, they wanted abortion. I chose to keep her alive so my parents disown me. We had a tough life. Hindi nakaya ng kinakasama ko ang hirap kaya iniwan niya kami ng bata. haha it's hilarious isn't it? I fight for her but she can't do the same for me ."
