I arrived home past 12. Pagbukas ko ng pintuan ay nakita ko siyang nakaharap sa bintana. Maliwanag ang buwan at pumapasok ang ilaw nito mula sa nakabukas na bintana ng kwarto ko.
I expected him to free himself from the handcuff. That's a basic skill players must perfect.
" Ba't di mo binuksan ang ilaw? "
I was about to turn it on when he spoke.
" It's late."
The only light in the room comes from the cold moon kaya ngayon ko lang napansin na naninigarilyo siya. Hindi ko na binuksan ang ilaw. Sa halip ay pinuntahan ko siya, binawi ang sigarilyo niya at tinapon.
" Don't smoke in front of me. I hate the smell," I said.
Tumango lang siya. We only met thrice but I could sense how he suddenly became cold and distant to me.
" Can I go out? maninigarilyo lang ako."
Tumango ako.
He was about to jump from my window when I grabbed his arms. Asking me why would be nonsense since I myself don't understand.
"Bakit?" malamig niyang tanong saken.
Nag-iwas ako ng tingin.
" Do you often smoke?" tanong ko sa kanya.
" No. I only do it when I'm in my worst mood."
"How often do you have that worst mood?"
He sighed and look at the moon. He's facing outside while I'm facing the glow - in - the - dark stickers in my room.
" I just smoked twice this year ," kalmante niyang wika.
" Why are you in your worst mood? "
He played his phone in his slender fingers as he bit his lower lip and smirk.
" My girl walk out of her room at 9: 09 PM and came back at 12: 24. Her clothes has a man's smell on it. What do you expect me to feel?"
Napalunok ako. His girl? He seems possessive. We barely know each other so what does it have to do with him?
" Don't smoke," I said.
" I told you. I'm in my worst mood."
Pinabilis niya pa ang pagpapaikot ng phone niya sa mga daliri.
" Let's talk instead," I suggested.
Umiiling lang siya.
" I wanted to kill someone. If I can't stay sane , I might also tear that clothes off and rape you."
Napahawak ako sa sarili ko bigla.
" Magbibihis muna ako."
" Your neck and hair has that irritating smell too."
" Okay. Maliligo ako."
" Do it fast ."
Ano ba 'tong ginagawa ko? Did I just cared about him? Did I just tolerate his possessiveness? Am I attracted to him by any chance? Physically?
Pagkatapos magbihis ay lumabas na ako sa bathroom. He still stood at the same place, wearing the same cold expression and doing the same thing. He is still playing with his phone.
" Uhm.. can we talk now? I mean ___."
He caught me off guard when he stride to hugg me.
" Anong ginagawa mo?!" tanong ko habang tinulak siya palayo.
