" That's it. We only need to prepare our minds before going to PA. Just send the list of your needed materials to the link Damon just sent you," Spongebob said.
"So pwede na akong umalis? " - Zeus.
" Depende kung gusto mong matulog dito? " - Gusion.
" Baka may gusto kang dalhing babae rito ha bawal __," -Sasuke
" Baby girl? "
Napatingin ako kay Spongebob.
" What's with that eyes? " he added.
Napapansin niya ba?
" Oo nga. Why do you look like you wanted to cry? " - Zeus.
"Wala 'to. Kulang lang ako sa tulog," tugon ko.
All disbelieving eyes were fixated on me. I sighed. I hope they would be smart enough to understand that I'd prefer things to remain private.
"Okay ka lang ba? " - Spongebob.
Okay ka lang ba? Hindi naman nanakit ang salitang yan pero bakit nung narinig ko, nararamdaman kong may patalim ang unti-unting bumaon sa puso ko. It unveils the pain I tried to mask. It releases the tears I tried to hide.
" Baby girl, what's wrong? " -Gusion.
" Ayaw mo bang iwan ang papa mo dito? " -Zeus.
" Are you pregnant? " - Sasuke.
" Did he left? " - Spongebob.
Shoot.
For unknown reason, I find myself crying even harder the moment he guessed it right.
Napailing lang sila habang tinitingnan ako.
" Sabi na nga ba eh."
" Ano ba kasing nangyari? "
Umiiling lang ako. I don't want to talk about it.
" Wag ka na mahiya.Tayo-tayo lang naman dito eh," - Gusion.
" We're not just officials baby girl. We're friends, advisors, family. Kung ayaw mo sabihin, iintindihin namin yan, pero pag di mo na kaya, andito lang kami," said Zeus as he tap my shoulders.
" We would always listen. Anytime "
" Iiyak mo lang yan ."
I did. I cried till my eyes hurt. Basang-basa na ang mask ko dahil sa luha pero hindi pa rin ito maubos-ubos. I'm a mess. I'm too shattered. I'm too too too shattered.
" Chester ang n-name niya.... nagtransfer sya s-sa Academy not long ago. I was sitting in....."
Unconsiously, I found myself narrating how things between us started, how it goes and how it ended, tragically. I didn't think what to say, I just said them. I narrated things just the way I feel them. Nakakatawa. I'm amused of the way I memorized some of his savage lines and remember what dark color of hoodie he wore that day. I can't stop myself from crying.
" Putek! sarap suntukin. May pa ligaw-ligaw pa sya eh aalis din pala! " - Gusion.
Spongebob place his hands on my shoulder.
" I know words won't be enough to heal you. You need to cry it out. Express how hurt you've been. Feel the pain and compose yourself again. That's what life is about baby girl ."
Spongebob was my best advisor. He taught me things I never know existed. Yung ibang officials naman tagatawa lang. Taga "tama yan" , "oo nga" , " the best advice ever", " All hail Spongebob". Minsan ginawan pa ng kanta ang mga sinasabi ni spongebob saken. Kahit papano, gumaan ng konti ang loob ko.
