Still falling for you

chapter 1

•Amelia pov•

he asked me he asked me to marry him
and I don't know what to say to him on the one hand I like him and I love scout but the problem is there! I love my son but I think that staying with his father was a mistake ...
God I have made a lot of mistakes in my life like drugs and alcohol but my biggest mistake was letting go of my son who in reality is not really mine anymore.  How can I say that mhhhh now he calls me "aunty amelia"but sometimes I know and feel that he wants to call me moma but Teddy is there for him and it's horrible for me to watch that she holds him and kisses him and she get to be with him every single day and I can't my god I was really stupid!
On the other hand I still like Owen,correction I still love him! And I know it's Terrible I'll probably go to hell for this but it's the truth !

An "amy" brings me back in the reality shit how much I will have to repeat to him not to call me like that, link continues to look at me with a knee on the ground without really understanding what is happening and in reality even I do not know it
With the courage I have I told him "I'm sorry" and just like that I ran away .
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I got in my car and started driving without really knowing where to go my head was full of thoughts not for link but rather for Owen because as I was leaving I saw that he was getting close to Teddy and even though I don't show it I hate seeing them together!
I know it's not Teddy's fault but she still stole my life, before she came along and dropped the atomic bomb that she was pregnant my life was perfect I was with the man of my life my daughter and my son and I was the happiest woman in the world and here I am two years later living a life I don't want anymore!
People will think I'm stupid for saying no to Link who for them is the most perfect man in the world and seriously he is close to perfection but he is not the man for me he is too perfect for me I am broken and full of secrets while he is not I don't feel I belong with him but I belong with someone else...
I keep on driving and I quickly realize that I'm stuck if I go home Link will end up going home and we'll fight and that's not what I want . The only way out was LA I went home or rather to Meredith's house and I packed my suitcase I also left a note to say that I needed some time but without saying where I was going!
After that I went to the airport I took a plane and flew away from all my problems