Too much

5: How have you been?

Star's P.O.V

"Okay Star that's enough procrastinating. Talk to me." Claudia says. I sigh and palm my face. "Okay. We can go to get some lunch and I promise we can talk there." She gives me an uncertain look but nods anyway. "It's just...It's not something I normally talk about to people. I've never even thought to bring it up." She nods understandingly and says, "I get it but you can talk to me. Maybe I can help you." I smile a little and lean into her. "Thanks." She rubs my back and hums. "No problem."

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"It's not really a big deal." I tell Claudia since her 50th time asking me about what haves me stressed. I try to back out of it because I really don't wanna talk about it. She takes a sip of her tea then says, "Okay tell me then." I play around with the alfredo on my plate then toss the fork down. I take a deep and mess with the ring on my finger that Billie gave me. I smiled, not believing I still had it after all this time. I stop fiddling and look back up at Claudia who was looking at me expectantly.

"Fine." I groaned. "It's my dad. He's not very supportive of my relationship choices if you know what I mean. He doesn't know that me and Billie go out but he suspects it and he's been on my ass about it. He hit me a couple of times. Made me bleed once. I also had a bruise. We argue every time he decides he wants to come around again and it's tiring. He's made me more miserable than I already was. I hate him and I don't know how much more I can take of him." I finish and let out a shaky breath. I didn't even realize I was crying. I quickly wiped my eyes and looked down.

"Oh my god, Star. I'm so sorry. Why haven't you told anyone. That's abuse. Verbal, emotional, and physical abuse." She stands up and gives me a tight hug. "I guess I never thought about it like that and he's still my dad." She kisses the top of my head and says, "Let's get out of here." I nod and get up. She pays the bill and then we leave. She drives so I could get some rest because I suddenly felt tired. "Where do you wanna go?" she asks. "To see Billie." I reply with my eyes closed. I hear her hum and then I'm in a deep sleep.

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"Ssh it's fine. Don't wake her." I hear someone whisper. I feel myself being picked up and I realize whose arms I'm in. I recognize the familiar vanilla scent and those hands that hold me almost every night. That hair that brushes my face softly each time she's close. Those chains clinking together in harmony. Those rings piercing my skin just a little bit. That hard, but steady breath. That soft angelic voice that fills my ears each time she speaks.

Soon I'm laid on what I presume is the couch. "My tired little baby. You're so beautiful." She coos and presses her god-like lips on my cheek and forehead. Her little button nose also slightly touching the places she kisses. She moves my hair aside then pulls her hand away. I hear some shuffling and I feel her warm body next to mine. Molding into my body. I try hard to keep from smiling as she pulls me into her and holds me close. "Sweet dreams. I love you." She mumbles into my hair. I smile wide and huddle closer to her.

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When I woke up, I noticed it was getting dark outside. I sighed, remembering I should be home. Billie is no longer next to me. I look around and see her in the kitchen with Claudia. I smile and go into the kitchen. Billie lights up when she sees me. "Welcome back." She says as she hugs me. "Hey." My voice comes out raspy from me just waking up. She places her hands on my waist and kisses me sweetly. Then she picks me up and places me gently on the counter. I wrap my arms around her neck as she stands in between my legs.

"You guys are so cute." Claudia coos. Billie's face turns red and she looks away from me. I gasp and say, "Oh my god. Is the Billie Eilish blushing?" She shoves me playfully and smiles. "No, I'm not. That shits fruity." Me and Claudia both laugh at her because she was gay her damn self and she was obviously blushing. 

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After about 20 minutes of goofing off, I told Billie that I had to go. "Say hi to Finneas and Maggie for me. Bye." I leave out and head home. Hopefully, my dad hasn't come home yet. I had a few missed calls from my mom but I ignored them since I was almost home anyway. Once I pull up, I grab my purse and head inside. I take a deep breath to mentally prepare myself then I go in. My mom is sitting on the couch staring at her phone. There's no sign of my dad so that's good.

"Oh my god, Star. I thought I told you not to be long. Your father could've come." She complained. I sigh and say, "But he didn't." "He could've though." "Look I'm sorry okay? I fell asleep and didn't wake up until a little while ago. It won't happen again." She eyes me then she throws her phone on the couch. "Fine but if you pull this again, I'm not covering for you. Take a shower, get yourself some dinner, and then rest for school." I nod and go upstairs. My mom can be a little much but I still loved her to death.

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After I put on my nightclothes, I headed downstairs to find something to eat. I looked through the refrigerator but it was nothing in there I wanted. I would've eaten rice but I didn't feel like making it. I huffed and decided on some golden grahams. I got a rather large bowl and poured in my cereal. After, I headed back up to my room. I watched youtube as I ate my cereal. Once I was done, I watched The Originals until I fell asleep.

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"Good morning baby. I got you your favorite." Billie said as we met up in the hallway. (It's the next day and they're in school.) "Good morning and thank you." I took the white paper bag from her hand. She got me 2 apple fritters and a bottle of milk. "That was so thoughtful of you." I say as I give her a peck on the lips. I was pretty hungry. "Of course. Anything you want baby girl." I smile at her but then someone behind her catches my eye.

I see CeCe getting her books and stuff from her locker. It's been a minute since we talked and since I've seen her. I was nervous and tried avoiding her as long as possible but I need to be mature and talk to her. Whatever was going on, wasn't gonna fix itself. "Billie, baby, I'll meet you in the classroom. There's someone I need to see." She nods and gives me one last peck on the lips. "Make sure to wear something nice Saturday." She mumbles against my lips. "We're going somewhere?" "Of course. It's our five-month anniversary." She says then she walks away. I totally forgot about that. Well, in all honesty, I didn't even know. It didn't feel like that long.

I take a deep breath then I make my way over to CeCe. Just as she was about to walk away, she spotted me. "Hey." I say quietly. A big smile appears across her face. She pulls me into her and we hug for a long time. "Hey Star. How have you been? I missed you." I sigh and pull away from the hug. "I've missed you too but we have a lot to talk about." Her face goes serious and she raises her eyebrow. "What is it? What happened?" "Well let's save that conversation for Wednesday after school. I just wanna say I'm sorry for pushing you away and not being open with you."

"I get it Star. People deal with shit and just because you're close to them doesn't mean you'll know. I'm used to it. You push me away all the time. But this time is different. Something big has happened. Somethings different. I can tell. I just don't get why it took so long to come to me." I gulp and look away. It's crazy how well she can see through me. "I needed to get my thoughts together and work up enough courage to face you. It's dumb but I just thought the problem would fix itself but look at where we are now. And that's selfish of me to leave you wondering what's going on when you've been here for me longer than anyone."

She nods and puts a piece of hair behind her ear. "Star I forgive you and I appreciate your apology but next time I want to be the first one you talk to. With whatever you're dealing with. Don't put me in the dark. I'm your best friend. I'm here for you. You know that." I let out a shaky breath and nod. "I know and I will." I give her one last hug before the bell rings. "Well, I'll see you at lunch." she says. I nod and we head to our classes. "How'd it go?" Billie asked. "Better than I expected." I smile and let out a relieved sigh. It feels like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulder. I feel better. I feel somewhat whole again but not yet. I still have things I need to give out to certain people. But I'm just going to enjoy time with my best friend and Billie for right now.

A little sum sum before the weekend. Anyways I hope you guys enjoy. Please vote and I'll see you guys next week. Bye. I love you all.