Too much

6: Don't be that way

Star's P.O.V.

Wednesday...

The last bell has rung. I gather my things and make my way to my locker. As I'm putting my books in my backpack, I feel someone poke my side. I turn around and see Billie. "Hey you." she cheeses. I smile and stand on my tippy toes to peck her lips. "Hey." I say softly. "You coming over today?" I nod and say, "But later though. I have something to discuss with CeCe." "Okay. I'm gonna be over finneas's house so you can come over there." she says. I nod and she kisses me one last time before she walks away.

I really didn't like having to tell people that I'm pregnant but CeCe is my best friend and I promised I wouldn't keep her in the dark. Every time I had to repeat it, it was like reality was slapping me in the face. I still haven't built up the courage to tell Billie but I know it has to be soon. We need to be able to make decisions together when it comes to certain things and plus I want her to be there when I get my ultrasound. I just don't know what time is right. I sigh deeply and close my locker before heading outside.

"What took you so long?" CeCe asked. She was waiting for me by the door. "Sorry I was just thinking about stuff." "So are you coming over?" I nodded and said, "Yeah but I'm gonna go home and change first." She nods and walks off. I groaned when I felt that arising feeling in my throat and that familiar swirling in my stomach. I needed to throw up. I swallowed the lump in my throat and attempted to hold it until I got home.

Once I got in the car, I took a few deep breaths to calm myself down. I cannot throw up in this car. The whole ride home I just took slow breaths and kept my mouth closed, which only made the pain in my stomach worsen. I hated throwing up. When the food and your insides come up, that shit hurts and it tastes nasty. That is the main thing I hate about being pregnant. As soon as I pull up in front of my house, I grab my stuff and hurry inside.

My mother greeted me but I couldn't speak. I just gave her a little wave and practically ran upstairs. I threw everything on the floor and ran to the bathroom in my room. I immediately started puking my guts out. After I finished, I flushed the toilet and let out a painful sigh. I got up and brushed my teeth. I threw on a hoodie and some biking shorts. I threw my hair up in a messy bun and headed downstairs.

"Sorry about that mom. My lunch just came up." I half-lie. She smiles sadly and opens her arms. I melt into her embrace and she kisses the top of my head. We stay like that for about a minute."Okay, I'm gonna go see CeCe. Is that okay." I pull back a little and ask. She smiles and nods. "That's fine. Tell her I said hey and that she's welcome to dinner Sunday night." I nod and let go of her completely before leaving out.

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"Okay, so what did you want to talk about?" CeCe asks. I sigh and cross my legs on the bed. I always have this plan in my head like I'm going to do or say this but when it comes to it, it backfires and the words get caught in my throat. I feel my face heat up and I blink rapidly so that I don't cry. I'm tired of crying but it's a touchy topic for me. CeCe grabs my hands in hers and rubs her thumb over my knuckles. "It's okay Star. Take your time." she whispers.

I smile widely and say, "One thing led to another and now...well...I'm pregnant." Her eyes grow wide and dart from my stomach back up to my face. It is silent for a long time. Too long. I start to get slightly uncomfortable. "Please say something." I whisper. She looks into my eyes and say, "From virgin to baby, huh?" she lets out a little chuckle but I don't find her comment amusing. This was serious, not a joke.

CeCe sees my face and her smile drops. "Bad joke, wasn't it?" I nod slowly. "When did you find out?" she says a bit more seriously. "A little over a month ago." "Wow. That's a lot Star. What are you gonna do?" I shrug my shoulders and look at our hands. "I don't know but I don't want to abort the baby. It's a small chance Billie could have kids and I'm not killing an innocent child." "But besides that do you want the baby?" she asked.

I haven't really given that thought. I wouldn't get an abortion but did I really want the baby? I mean I've always wanted kids but not this soon. "I haven't given it much thought but I believe I do. I've always wanted kids but not this soon." She nods slowly and squeezes my hand again. "I get that. Whatever decision you choose just know I'm here and I'll support you. When's the last time you went to the doctor?" "I went sunday with Claudia." 

"Billie's friend?" I nod and she has this look on her face that I can't describe. I sigh and say, "What?" "It's just...how come she knew before me?" she says while shrugging. I roll my eyes and say, "CeCe don't be that way. We weren't on talking terms so I didn't know how to bring it up to you and plus Claudia is too nice for all of that." "I'm sorry I just can't help but feel left out." I take my hands out of hers and put them in my lap roughly. "CeCe let's not. Please. Promise we that you won't be acting funny and shit around her. It's not that deep." She puts her hands up and says, "Fine. I'll try but no promises."

I roll my eyes and get up. "Bitch I'm finna go. You are too much." I let out a little chuckle and walk to the door. "Where you going?" "To go see Billie." I reply. "When are you gonna tell her?" she asks. I shrug and sigh. "I don't know but it has to be soon. Anyways I love you bitch. bye." She gives me a kiss on the cheek and brings me into a hug. "Love you too hoe." she says then slaps my ass as I let go. I make my way downstairs and leave out.

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Shortly, I pull up to finneas and claudia's house. I grab my phone and get out. Claudia answered on the second knock. "Heyy." I bring her in for a side hug. "Hey Star. How's the little one." she asks while rubbing a hand over my belly. "They're good. Got a little sick earlier but I'm good. Hungry though." She smiles and moves aside so I can walk in. "I'll get you something to eat but finneas and Billie are in the living room." I nod and make my way over to the couch where they were sitting.

When Billie saw me walking up, she broke into a smile and immediately got up. "Hey baby." she cooes. "Hey." I say as I give her a hug. "I missed you." she mumbled into my hair. "I miss you too." I pull away but Billie grabs my waist pulling me into her. She plants a long, deep kiss on my lips, slipping tongue in occasionally. It gave me butterflies but not in my stomach. Finneas clears his throat making us pull away from each other and laugh. "Shut up. They're cute." Claudia says, pulling his ear.

"What were you two talking about?" Billie asked. I shook my head and gave her a small smile. "Nothing." "Why have you been so secretive lately?" I sigh and try to quickly think of something to tell her. "I haven't been secretive I'm just dealing with stuff my own way and that means by myself, in my own zone. Just give it time. Don't worry about it." She looked skeptical and she wasn't gonna stop until she was satisfied with an answer. "And what about that day you were gonna tell me something?" 

"I'll tell you sometime soon but right now can we just enjoy this time together." She sighed and smiled before nodding her head. She leaned down and pecked my lips multiple times. "Okay fine." She said in a baby voice. I smiled and let out a sigh of relief. 

Guys I am so sorry. I'm 2 days late. I've just been busy and haven't had the time but I hope you guys enjoy. Anyways, please vote and I will most likely put out another chapter tomorrow. I love you all. Bye.