Too much

Antisocial

Star's P.O.V.
1 week later...

I get out of the shower and dry my hair. I made sure I woke up a little bit earlier so I could wash my hair. I was kind of second guessing it because my hair becomes flat and even curlier. I decided to let it air dry because blow drying it will just mess it up. I let out a heavy sigh and began to get my hair spray and comb.

I placed a part down the middle of my head, just the front part of it though, then I began to gently comb it. "Star?!" I could hear my mom's voice echo off the walls. "Yea?!" I yelled back. "Just making sure you were awake. I have to make some runs so I won't be here when you leave so don't forget to lock the door and have a good day at school. I love you." I smiled to myself and replied, "I love you too, bye."

I heard a couple doors shut then there was just dead silence. For some reason I started acting out like I was in a movie or something but soon stopped once I realized how stupid I looked. I was actually really happy today because I didn't get any morning sickness.

I sprayed a little bit of Cantu in my hair then combed it out. As predicted, my hair was flat but it was silky and actually kind of cute so I let it slide. I'm actually thinking about cutting my hair into a bob but I'm not completely sure I want to. I put all my stuff away then went into my room to get dressed.

My hand absentmindedly grazed my belly when I took my towel off. I can't wait till I get to meet my little bean. It's still so surreal that I'm gonna be a mom. I don't let my mind wander too much and began to get dressed. Again choosing an old sweat shirt and black shorts and my black and white air jordans.

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Once I gathered everything, I made my way downstairs. I was really hoping to see my dad but I wasn't surprised that he wasn't here. I proceeded out the front door, locking it behind me. I got in my car and made my way to school.

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"Hey beautiful." "Hi Billie." Billie greeted me at the door with a hug. We haven't spoke a whole lot after what happened between us. Billie has been trying her hardest to get back in good graces with me and I honestly appreciate her effort but I'm not ready to be with her just yet.
"How you feeling and how is my little bean?" I smile at her words.

"I'm good and they're good. I didn't puke my guts out this morning so that's a plus. They've been kicking a bit too." I tell her. She discreetly rubs her hand over my belly, looking down at me with those eyes. "I can't believe I'm really gonna be a parent. Wait will I be the mom or the dad?"I laugh at Billie and shake my head before turning my body away from her.

"You're gonna be whatever you want." We we're about to walk in the school when I heard CeCe's loud ass mouth. "Oh my god! See Star I told you y'all were gonna get back together." She screeches. I cringe and turn to her. "Do you have to be that goddamn loud?" She just smiled and shrugged her shoulders. Eyes that were on us, now looking away. "And we talk to each other but we're not together." I couldn't  miss the saddened look on Billie's face.

"And why are y'all not together?" CeCe raises a brow. "You ask a lot of questions." I smile and shoo her away playfully. Just then I happen to look over and I spot Danielle. Her eyes meet mine and her along with three other girls erupt in laughter. I sigh and look down. I feel Billie push past me but I get in front of her, holding a hand on her chest. "She's not worth it." I say. I know Billie wants to get to her so bad but she listens to me.

"Let's go to class." I say to the two of them. They nod and we began to walk away. I look at Danielle one last time and she has this smirk on her face like she's done something and it's going to affect me. I look the other way confidently, not showing her that she's got under my skin, and walked to class. Ignoring the tight feeling in my chest.

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Throughout the day, Billie and CeCe have brought my spirits back up and now it's lunchtime. We grab our trays and go to the same table we sat at everyday. For some reason I felt like everyone was looking at me. Judging me. It made me feel uneasy. My anxiety at its highest. It made my body heat up and my eyes look down. What is wrong with me?

"Is it just me or is everyone staring at me?" I ask Billie and CeCe. They both look around before returning back to me. "Well whoever has something to say, I'll beat their ass." Billie snarls. I smile a little, immediately feeling better. "Me as well. You know I don't even like these people." CeCe said, taking my hand. I smile and nod. "I know."

As normal, we ate and talked and laughed.
Enjoying each other's company. Just then two boys come over. Billie give them ugly looks. "Damn Star. You used to be hot. Now someone's got you knocked up." One of them say. My face goes red and my whole body shakes. A bunch of emotions flowing through me. Before I know it, Billie gets up and punches one of the guys. I just sit and stare into space. Tears slipping out my eyes.

I hear an inaudible, "Star." My breathing starts to get heavy, breaths loud in my ears. I see Danielle again with that same smirk. CeCe tries to grab my hand but I get up and run to the bathroom, feeling sick. I immediately go into the stall and throw up. A few girls gossiping about me as they leave out.

My breath still uneasy and caught in my throat. I heave as I try to steady my breathing. Tears pooling out of my eyes. I was having a panic attack. Dozens of questions running through my mind. "How do they know? What gave it away? If somebody told them, who? Why is this happening to me? Is Billie gonna be okay? Will they be mad at me for leaving? Are they looking for me? Do they know where i am? What will other people think of me now? Am I going to die from lack of oxygen?

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