Too much

Truths

Billie's P.O.V.

I wake up in a cold sweat for some reason. I sit on the couch with my eyes closed while breathing in and out. I rub my eyes and get up. I stop in the kitchen first to get some water then I go to the bathroom. Everything from last night plays in my mind. I love Star but she has a bad temper. Especially since she's pregnant; it can be hard to deal with her sometimes. I use the bathroom and brush my teeth before I go upstairs to check on her.

I go to my room but to my surprise, I don't see Star in my bed. It seems she slept there but she was gone now. I started to feel a little sad thinking that she probably actually left. I run into my mom in the hallway. "Hey, mom. Good morning. Have you seen Star?" She gives me a small smile before answering. "Yes, actually. We spoke as well. She's in the back." A wave of relief washes over me. I thank my mom before I make my way to the back. I see Star sitting in the swing that's on the porch. She was so deep in thought she almost didn't notice me.

"Hey." She says softly. "Hey." I stare at her for a second before I take a seat next to her. "Are you okay?" I ask. She shakes her head no. "I feel a little better though." I nod and take one of her hands in mine. "Billie I'm so sorry about last night." I shake my head and put a strand of hair behind her ear. "Ssssh. You have nothing to be sorry about. It's okay." "No, it's not okay. We keep falling out because of me." I place my thumb on her chin and gently face her towards me. "We never fell out. It's normal for us to disagree on some things." "I'm tryna get better at controlling my emotions. I haven't been very fair to you lately.

I furrow my eyebrows. "What do you mean?" She sighs and looks into her lap. "Honestly, I've just been horny and upset and those two emotions don't mix. Plus I feel unwanted and like I don't belong." "Star...Baby...I love you. Yeah, when you get in your moods it isn't always fun for me but I don't mind. I understand that you can't control your feelings sometimes. Don't ever feel like that." I let her hand go and pull her into me. She rests her head on my shoulder and I hear her let out a small sigh. "I'm trying to stop doing that."

"Doing what?" She looks up at me then lays back down. "Pushing people away. Especially you. I'm not used to talking about how I feel." "I know." I whisper. "And that's okay. We'll work on it together." I feel her smile. "Where did you come from?" She asks. We both laugh and I kiss her. "Ask my mother." She laughs again. I wrap a arm around her and mess with her belly bump. "How's my baby." "Hungry...apparently." I chuckle and get up. "Come on. Let's freshen up first then I'll fix you something to eat if my mom doesn't beat me to it." She smiles widely and I can't help but stare. "What?" She asks shyly covering her face. "C'mere." I grip her neck somewhat gently and pull her into a kiss.

"What do you think about spending the day with me." I ask, pulling away breathlessly. "I'd like that." She mumurs, eyes focused on my lips. I smirk and stare down at her. "Don't even put on any clothes when you're done showering. I want you to get in my bed, legs open." I hear her breath hitch in her throat and I smile. "Why can't we take one together?" I wrap my whole hand her neck and tilt it slightly. "Because I have to do something but I want you there when I'm done." Her eyes rolls unintentionally and she licks her lips. 

"Okay."