Too much

Leave me alone

Billie's P.O.V.

What the hell just happened..?

That was all I could think about. A number of emotions washed over me. I couldn't imagine what Star was thinking or feeling. I want to say something but I can't find the right words at the moment. I don't wanna say the wrong thing but I also don't think I should anything at all. I glance over at Star and she's looking out the window. I could see her reflection in the window; she was crying. I just wanted to hold her and let her know everything was gonna be okay.

I reach over to grab her hand but she moves it away and murmurs a "no." I move my hand away. An unfamiliar ping in my chest. She sniffles and I feel her eyes on me. "I'm sorry." she says. "No, it's okay. I get it." She smiles faintly and lays her head on my shoulder. The ping goes away and I rest my head on hers. 

"You want anything?" I ask. "No, I just want to go to the house." I give her a small ok and the ride to my house was silent. It was a comfortable but tense silence. I pull my car into the driveway and park it behind my mom's. "Come on baby. We're here." Star sits up and takes her seatbelt off. I can tell she's tired. She's had a long day. "I'll get your bags. You can go in and up to my room. I can see the relief on her face. She nods and makes her way to the door.

I go and gather her bags, coming in the house shortly after her. I presume my mom is asleep since I don't see her downstairs. Once I get to my room, I sit her bags down and sit on the bed next to her. There's a moment of silence then I look at her. "C'mere." She sniffles again then she comes in my lap and buries her head in my shirt. I held her close to me and kissed her forehead. Then I lay down on the bed bringing her on top of me. She finds it more comfortable to lay in between my legs on her back. I stir a bit because she's directly on my "leg". 

I lift her shirt and begin to rub her belly. "Is this okay?" I murmur softly. She nods and sighs while laying her head back. I look down at her and can't help but stare. She has her eyes closed and she's snoring lightly. "Stop staring at me you creep." I quickly look away with a goofy smile on my face. "I wasn't." "Yes, you were. I felt you." She says letting out a giggle. I laugh and say, "Okay maybe I was but I can't help it." She opens her eyes, looking directly at me. We stare at each other for a while. You could sense the sexual tension but I wasn't gonna do anything with her right now.

She grabs me by my neck, pulling me down, and we engage in a sloppy kiss. I grab her by her neck and bend it back slightly so I can get a better angle. I hear a soft moan escape her mouth. She pulls away and sits up, turning to face me. I raise my eyebrows in confusion. She then rubs her hand over my area. I grab her hand and move it. "Not now." She sighs and annoyance and rolls her eyes. She moves her hand and gets up. "Star it's not that I don't want to. You're just not in the right headspace." "Sure." She says dryly. I sigh and begin to get up from the bed.

Then she begins to grab her bags. "Star what are you doing?" "I think I'm gonna go to CeCe's. Somewhere I'm wanted." She doesn't look my way as she speaks. "Star please stop. You know I want you here. I just don't wanna take advantage of you." "How are you taking advantage when I want it?" I sigh again. "You know what I mean. You're not thinking right." "Oh so now you know what I think, huh?" She starts walking towards the door. I rush after her grabbing the bags.

"Okay Star I'm sorry but please don't go. Look...I'll...sleep on the couch and you can stay in here okay?" She looks as if she's thinking about it. "Fine. But you should go now. I'm pretty tired." I sigh and go to grab a blanket. "Do you ne-" "No. I'm fine. You can go." This honestly irritated me a bit but I let her be. She's had a long day. She slams the door as I leave.