Too much

10: some things never change

Star's p.o.v

I lay my head on cece's shoulder and let out a sigh. These past few days has been overwhelming. Dealing with all this by myself is frustrating and stressful. And having that fight with Billie makes it no better. "What's on your mind babes?" Cece asks. "Billie." I answer honestly. "Mm. What about Billie?" "I just feel stupid for thinking that Billie would change. She's still surprisingly the same dickhead she's always been." CeCe chuckles and lays her head against mine.

"I don't think she means to be. Billie has no filter and say whatever comes to mind. But all this will blow over soon and you guys will be good again." I look down and fiddle with the ring on my finger, a new habit I have whenever it has something to do with Billie. "That's just the problem. What if I don't want us to be good again?" CeCe quickly got up and looked at me like I was stupid.

"Don't ever let that bullshit come out of your mouth again." She said sternly. I gave her a small fake laugh before saying, "No seriously though. What if I don't? I mean if she's only ever gonna see me as a cheater and if she doesn't trust me then we shouldn't be together. I'm not gonna keep putting myself in that position. It's not worth the pain and misery."

CeCe opens her mouth to say something then closes it. She knows I'm right but she'll never admit it. "Look, you can do whatever you want since it's your decision and I'll be here to support you but you should cut her a little slack. Finding out you have a child on the way is not easy and this is her first and probably only child. And try to put yourself in her shoes. If Billie did what you did to you, you would react the same or probably worse. Trust is a big thing to earn back but you guys will get there. Plus I don't think I can ever not see you two together."

I try hard to keep a straight face. Not wanting to give CeCe the satisfaction of seeing the smile that's threatening to creep onto my face. I could consider giving her another shot but It's the last shot she'll get. CeCe has a point but it doesn't make what Billie said hurt any less. I sigh and say, "I'll think about it." Just then my phone rings. I groan when I see the contact name.

Mi amor💕🥰🙄😋🤞🏽

"This is literally her 20th time calling me today." CeCe smiles and says, "Answer it." I was about to argue but end up just hitting the green button, knowing CeCe would just call her. (Star~italic, Billie~bold)

*gasp* he-hello?

Billie you have to stop blowing up my phone.

I didn't think you would answer.

Her voice sounded so small and frail, I almost felt bad for her. Almost.

Billie I know you're hurt. I'm hurt too but you're only making it worse.

I'm sorry. I really am. I just miss you.

*sigh* I miss you too Billie but you need to learn how to be patient. Time heals all wounds. We can't just fall out and get back together. That's toxic.

...can we talk? Like meet up somewhere and have a real conversation?"

I pull the phone away from my ear and look at CeCe. 'She wants to meet'. I mouth. She smiles and nods her head quickly.

Hello?

I slowly put the phone back to my ear debating if I should actually meet her or not.

Sure. We can meet tomorrow at 2 in that little cafe where I get my grilled cheese.

Wait really?

Mhm. I'm with cece right now so I'll talk to you later.

Okay. Wait- Star?

Yes?

I love you.

I sigh and bring the phone away from my ear again. She always does this. She makes me feel bad for something that isn't even my fault and I give in to her but this time I'm not letting that happen. Billie has to learn her lesson or otherwise she'll think it's okay to do and say the things she does. I still loved Billie but she didn't deserve the satisfaction of knowing that.

Mhm. See you tomorrow Billie.

With that I hung up and threw my phone on the bed. Let's see how this all plays out tomorrow.

I'm feeling pretty good about this chapter. Anyways, I might be putting out another put that I was beginning to write because all of a sudden I wanted to write it so yeah. But I hope you guys enjoyed. I love you all. Bye.