Too much

Keeping secrets

"Star what's wrong? You're doing it again." Cece says. "Doing what? I'm not doing anything." I reply dryly while putting another cherry in my mouth. I knew what she was talking abt but I wasn't gonna say it. "You're becoming distant and not talking. What's up? And please don't lie to me." I looked down as I popped another cherry in my mouth.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I say, my eyes glued to the bag of cherries. "Star yes you do. Look at you, you can't even look at me."  I sighed and walk into her living room. "CeCe it's nothing. Please don't pressure me with this." I plead. She sighs and sits next to me on the couch. " You're annoying bitch." She says. I force my face to stay neutral as a smile tug at my lips.

I can't hold myself and burst into laughter. CeCe joins me. Once our laughter dies down she asks, "how's my niece or nephew?" "They're good. I have an appointment tomorrow." "Oou bitch I wanna come." "Okay but only if you buy lunch." I say, smiling. "Fine. Fat fuck." "I love you tooo." I say in a sing-song voice.

"But seriously though. You have to tell me what's up." I sigh and my smile drops as my mind wanders. "Can you keep a secret?" I ask after a while. She nods and says, "of course." "Well long story short, I- my-..*sigh* I may have caught my dad cheating on my mom:" her eyes go wide and she gasps. "No fucking way. With who?" I chew on my lip as I decide rather I wanna tell her or not.

"With her best friend." "Now that is low. I'm so sorry." I shrug and wipe away a stray tear. "It's not your fault. You have nothing to be sorry for." "That's still so fucked up for your family though. Does your mom know?" I shake my head and look down. "I wanna tell her so bad but I know it's gonna tear her apart and I'm not ready to see that." CeCe nods understandingly and lays on me while wrapping a hand around my stomach.

"I'm sorry babes. If I knew that was why you were so quiet, I would've never asked." "It's fine. I needed to tell someone anyways." I bite my lip to keep from crying. I have just become a baby now-a-days. "It's h-hurts." I cry out, my voice cracking. She holds me tighter and shushes me. "It's okay. You'll be okay." She repeated over and over. Although we both knew that wasnt true, it was enough to
Make us believe. I buried my face in her shirt and cried. The heartache was unbearable. It was eating me up in the inside, not telling my mom. It was wrong but I needed to protect her.

"Don't cry baby. I got you." CeCe whispered in my ear as she rubbed my back. I held her tightly as I cried my heart out. All this time they've been fucking around and no one knew. How could Cecile betray my mom like that.? Saying it hurts, was an understatement.
It's fucking gut-wrenching.

A lil short but bear with me guys.. tryna ease my way into the juicy parts.