I was sitting on a beach with the sun shining down on us as DJ, De'Vaughn, and a small dark-skinned boy who looked A LOT like Elijah played in the water.... My back was lying against Elijah's chest as his hands roamed freely over my body.... this was my paradise. But something was wrong.... the sun seemed to be getting closer, the water began to boil, the palm trees caught fire and suddenly I was alone in a house that was burning. Smoke filled my lungs, the flames burned my skin, the cries for help filled my ears as I tried to get to the room where the voices were coming from..... it was hard to see, but I couldn't stop. With one powerful kick I broke the door down and when I got into the room there was....... I sat up in bed breathing heavily, I could still feel the flames near my skin, still taste the smoke in my mouth, still see...... I shook my head and got out of bed, Elijah was still asleep and I didn't want to wake him because I knew all he would do was worry and tell me that I needed to get help but this would pass... I had been through worse than this and I just needed to do what I've always done which was find something to make me forget about my trauma. I got out of bed slowly so I didn't wake Elijah and crept out of our room.
"Get it together Doonie...." I said wiping the sweat from my forehead and walking to the stairs, I was considering sneaking out and smoking a blunt when I noticed a light coming from downstairs and I knew for a fact that Elijah turned them all off because he didn't play that shyt. I walked downstairs quietly because after my house had gotten broken into I was always on guard; when I got to the dining room I heard a chair being pulled through the kitchen and noticed one of the chairs from the dining room table was missing... I smiled because I already knew......
I stood in the corner and watched as DJ lined the chair up with the fridge and climbed on top of it, then he proceeded to pull out my Oreo Ice Cream and place it on the kitchen counter, but he wasn't done just yet. I watched as he climbed down, pushed the chair to where we kept the bowls, and smirked as he climbed on top of the counter and grabbed a bowl; he got everything he needed and made him a bowl of ice cream making sure to put the ice cream back in the same place and sat on the floor.... DJ brought the spoon to his mouth and stopped before getting up and grabbing the caramel out of the fridge, my nigga.... he knows that's the only way to eat Oreo Ice Cream.
"You planning on sharing?" I asked, smiling as DJ nearly jumped out of his skin. "I was wondering who has been eating my ice cream, this whole time I figure it was De'Veon only to find out it's my own son." I said walking into the kitchen and grabbing a bowl out of the dishwasher, quite possibly showing DJ a much easier way than climbing on my damn counters. "What'chu doin' up man?" I asked sitting on the floor next to him after making me a bowl as well.
"I was hungry.... and I didn't want to wake y'all up." DJ said smiling as he placed the spoon in his mouth. "What are you doing up?" He asked and my dumb ass was really about to answer.
"I'm grown.... I can be up as long as I want." I said pushing the side of his head playfully. "I couldn't sleep..." I said truthfully.
"Me either.... I..... I was dreaming about mommy and......" DJ got quiet and I really didn't want him to say anymore, what happened to his mom was beyond foul and that was something I took the blame for. I should've never underestimated Genesis cruelty, I don't have many regrets in life but I regret everything to do with that nigga and I was glad he was dead.
"I was dreaming about that fire...." I said honestly.
"I don't want you to do that again....." DJ said quietly. "I don't have a mommy... I need my dad." DJ said and that shyt was honestly a blow to my heart because even though he was young he knew and sometimes kids were wiser than adults. "Promise you won't do that again." DJ said looking at me with a fierce look in his eyes.
"I promise.... but you need to hurry up and get back to bed because if Elijah catches you I'm going to get blamed for it." I said smiling. I took DJ up to his room and waited until he was sleeping before creeping out and checking on De'Vaughn.... that boy even as an infant slept crazy as fuck just like his damn dad. Once I was sure that everyone was sleeping, I crept out to the front porch and lit up a blunt.
