How do you sit in the same room with someone you grew up with and feel like you didn't know them at all? Like not ten feet away from me sat my big brother, Diante hasn't glanced in my direction since I sat down; now I know we haven't been on the best of terms since that incident with Raheim but still, he could at least acknowledge my presence since I at the very least nodded towards him when I walked in. I sat next to Raheim who like he didn't see Diante, we were sitting in the DMV waiting so I could renew my license and also change my address to Duron's place since I was now officially living there. It was better than sitting in a classroom and I was actually enjoying my day until I saw DIante, I hated that me and my brother couldn't be on better terms but Diante needed to get his shyt together in terms of his child, his relationship with us, and his homophobic ways when the truth of the matter is he's getting dicked down by Big Dawg. After finishing up in the DMV me and Rahiem walked outside and got assault by the wind, not only was that shyt powerful but it was cold and wet; we ran to the car and Raheim who hadn't said a word since we got here turned to me and I braced myself for either an argument or a lecture.
"Raheim look I'm tired.... so could we please not argue right now?" I asked letting out and exasperated sigh.
"You know what bruh, I was legit bout to tell you to pull your dick out so I could suck it but since you're so tired I'll just play games on my phone." Raheim said pulling his seatbelt across his body.
"Woah, woah, woah, let's not breeze past that, if that's really what you were about to say then shyt I'm all for it." I said starting to pull my dick out but Raheim didn't look up from his phone and ignored the fact that I was sitting in the driver seat with my dick in my hand. "Come on Rah don't be like that." I said reaching over to him.
"Nah bruh, you're tired... we can try again when you're tired." Raheim said smiling.
"See you're being childish, but I'm going to hold you to that. Well since you won't top me off, let's talk what did you think of my boys?" I asked, the little get together we had the other seemed to go smoothly but Raheim hadn't really said anything about it since then, maybe because Elijah's grandma came over and cooked and once we finished eating we went straight to sleep. Raheim didn't speak but I could tell he was choosing his words carefully.
"I had a friend who hated pineapples on pizza though he never tried it, every time I'd get it he'd say shyt like 'that's nasty as fuck' and 'I'd never eat that shyt' but I continued to do it, not giving a fuck what he had to say because me eating pineapples on my pizza didn't affect him in any way. One day we had just finished smoking and I ordered a pizza with pineapples and he wanted to try it, he ended up loving it and now every time we order pizza he has to have pineapples on it." Raheim said and I sat there looking at him.
"Aight so I'm a little slow, but let me see if I understand what you're saying. In the situation, you just described Myles would be the friend who hates pineapples on pizza which I take it is code for us being together. He's going to keep expressing how much he hates 'pineapples on pizza' but eventually get curious about it and wanna try. Did I get that right?" I asked and Raheim nodded. "Nah, not Myles.... not every dude is curious Rah some dudes were just raised to believe that two men shouldn't be together and I know for a fact Myles is one of them." I said laughing.
"I was raised to believe that you shouldn't have sex until you were married but the more I was told I shouldn't do something the more I wanted to do it and I promise you now I can't imagine my life without sex now. I can't even go a week without busting a nut so just because you were raised to believe something doesn't mean you have to follow it and I've learn that the more you're told that you can't have something the more you want it. But you'll see...." Raheim said and I shrugged, he had one interaction with Myles whereas I've had years to get to know this dude.
"But you never answered my question, what did you think of my boys?" I asked again and Raheim shrugged.
"Your cousin Andre is a clown.... meaning he's funny, although he tries a little too hard to be funny which in turn makes him look stupid. Myles is too homophobic like it's usually the ones who care to much who are either curious or they're hiding something." Raheim said and I bit back a smart comment because he was going to continue believing that Myles was curious until he was proven wrong.
"Well Doonie is taking DJ to see his grandparents in a couple of weeks, he's taking De'Vaughn with him so I'll have the house to myself... IF Myles is really curious as you claim we can invite him over and see if he'd be down for a lil tag team action." I said smirking and Raheim looked at me like I had just something to offend him. "What? If he's curious he'll want to experiment with someone he trust and I'm more than willing to be the sacrificial lamb, I've seen his ass and it's lowkey fat but I'd fuck another nigga while we're together unless you were involved."
"Nigga you just wanna have a threesome." Raheim said that stone cold look on his face finally breaking.
"Obviously nigga, I've had one with two chicks but something tells me that one with two niggas would be even more lit, besides if you wanna blame someone blame Antwan. The way he and Terron talk about their threesomes got a nigga curious if it's as fun as they say...." I said pulling into McDonald's drive-thru.
"Speaking of Antwan, that nigga is throwing a party this weekend and I told him I'd come help him set up." Raheim said and I nodded. "Make sure you get extra sweet and sour sauce." Raheim said. We got our food and went back to Doonie's house, Elijah was on his way to Memphis, Doonie had taken De'Vaughn to get his shots and DJ was in school so we were alone in this big ass house.
"Rah... I love you." I said as we sat down and started eating. "I just thought you should know what." I said grabbing my Big Mac and turning on the t.v., I could feel Raheim staring at me and it took all my willpower not to look at him. I didn't tell him I loved him because I wanted to have sex or anything but because I just wanted him to know.
"I love you too De'Veon, even though you're about to lose your fuckin fingers if you don't put my fuckin nuggets down." Raheim said as I discreetly tried to slide some of his nuggets. "But I really do love you and I know we started off rocky with all that shyt with your bro but I like where we are in our relationship, though we still have room to grow."
"I just wished that you and my boys could get along, I know it's not on you but the way they were raised.... it's going to take some time for them to get used to me being bisexual." I said looking into his eyes.
"De'Veon, I've never been the type of person who is going to change who I am to appease other people, if your boys are homophobic then that's their problem. I can take gay jokes, hell me and Twan clown each other all the time about being gay but there's a thin line between jokes and disrespect, it falls on you to teach your boys and your cousin that that line is." Raheim said.
"I hear you and I'll talk to them.... mainly Andre because he doesn't have a filter. But you gotta understand that he's always been a little vicious with his jokes and what you may deem disrespectful he might think it's perfectly in bounds." I said grabbing a few of his fries.
"It's all about tone, I can tell when someone is joking and when someone is trying to be funny. But it's all about education and if I gotta use my fist to teach him to respect me then I'll do just th....."
"Shut up....." I said quietly and Raheim looked like he was about to say something but I covered his mouth. "No seriously be quiet, do you hear that?" I said and I could see Raheim listening carefully, I was listening as well and at first, I didn't hear anything but then I heard a noise coming from the back of the house. "Go upstairs, grab the gun from the top shelf in my closet." I whispered as I got up and tiptoed to the kitchen. I got to the kitchen and saw Andre and Myles standing out on the back porch, now if they were trying to break in they were quite possibly the dumbest criminals in the world because they were wearing bright colors and their faces weren't covered.
"Nigga open the door." Andre said looking at me through the window, I opened the door and let them in just as Raheim entered the kitchen.
"Is everything alright?" Raheim asked passing me the gun, I looked at Andre and Myles before nodding to Raheim.
"Yeah, they were just about to explain why they were moving around in the back of the house like some fuckin criminals. So take a seat and y'alls explanation better be good otherwise....." I said leaving the threat lingering in the air between us...........
