Cold, & Alone. But still going to do me.

Chapter 15

Teya

"why did this happen. I should of never brought my blood pressure so high. I should of controlled my self. I should of put my son first. Now he's died all because of me." I said

"Teya it's not your fault baby. We going to get through this okay. We got each other okay." He replied   I couldn't understand this when I was spending the day with Alex's grandmother I was fine I just felt very weird I had a bad feelin but I didn't think nothing of it. I called jake to pick me and Grandma up because I know that I couldn't drive I felt sick and Weird. My Jr wasn't moving around or nothing I don't understand how this happened. I feel like I killed my child I knew something was up but I didn't follow my instinct. Why God took my son away from me be4 I could even hear is first cry?

After Alex told them to get out. not even 2 mintues later they had to give me a c-section to take the baby out of me or I could mess up my body. They took him out of me and he look just like his father; They didn't give me 5 minutes with my son they just took him away from me be4 I could even hold him. They made me stay the night but since I had a unsuccessful C- Section they have to let me go by 12:00 In the afternoon.  I have a son who died he didn't even make it for me to look and cherish the momments with him. I have a funeral to plan. How am I going to do this?

Shay

Door opens

"You have some towels in the bathroom and soap if your want to shower. They are also some blankets in the closet if you get cold in the night. If you need me I will be in my room" He said 

This was a good looking place but I anit doing shit up in here. Am just take a shower with my stuff I have in my car just for Emergency  I opened my car door and grab my stuff. I've been in North Port for almost 2 hours and I've been calling Alex on my phone but no answer. Every time I call it sends me straight to voice mail. 10 mins later I decide to call His grandma to see what's wrong because Alex anit the type of person to keep his fone turned off.

"Hi Nana how have you been? "

"I am doing fine I just been dealing with this cancer. But, God works and the only thing I can do is pray. My grandson Is in the hosptial for God knows how long am just on my knees praying that God makes a way for us right now." She spoked

" What do you mean? Nana..... What happened?"                                  

"Teya Is in the hosptial something about the baby. They lost the baby. Alex and Teya is a mess right now. Jake is coming to get me to take me to see them"

"Ok .... I will be there in 2 hours tops"

"Baby where are you?"

"North Port Nana but, I will be there"

"It's a 3 hour drive LaShay dont you mean 3 hours tops"

"Not the way I drive. I will be there" Conversation done                                                                                      I grabbed my stuff and put them in the car. I told the man I am leaving and he thought I was crazy It was 2:30 in the morning but I don't give a crap I lefted and started driving straight to the nearest exit and made my way back home. I kept dailing Alex number I lefted voice mails, Text messages . I drove fast I raned every red light I really don't care I can pay them tickets any day but today.

Alex

Teya finally went to sleept I been walking around this parking lot like am crazy I punched every little fucking thing out. I even beat a man nurse for trying to feel up on Teya whlie there were doing the C-section. I couldn't stay in the room with Teya I know she blams me for this. I know she hates me I check up on her every 10 mins. Jake brought my Gandma here and she just brought her bible and just tried to talked to me but I anit hearing this. So she went to go see Teya up in her room. I turned my fone off becuase I don't have time to hear ppl shit. I just lost my damm son. Even thou I wasn't ready for him but he was suppose to be here. I was suppose to be a farther to him and teach him shit.  I screamed I did every thing in my power to let this angry out but it didn't work.

I went back to the room to check on Teya that same punk nigga was in the room touch Teya's breast teaching her how to remove the milk out. I went straight to him and beat his ass again I just need to take my anger out and I did somewhat did that. " Are you fucking serious Alexander"

"You expected me to just sit here and watch this dome ass nigga feel up on you. Huh, what the fuck you think I am. Plus anit female nurse suppose to do that shit. Why the fuck he doing it."

"He's gay Alex and all the women nurse are occupied."

"Man w.e If I was a guy I would pretend to be gay just to see some women boo's so don't be telling me shit about that cause that's some bull shit."                                                                                             a women nurse came and tooked care of Teya. This is some bullshit dog. Why the fuck did this shit happen to me and Teya. All of a suden Shay walks in the room running towards me asking me if am okay etc. then all of a suden Teya start bitching and the both get into argument. I really don't  have time for this shit. Shay I love her like a sister but I do admit that I have feelings for that I cant explain. Teya I love her she the mother to my died child and She's my first love. 

Teya: What are you doing here? 

Shay: I came to see how you guys were doing that's all I didn't me to cause any harm.

Teya: Shay I dont want you hear get the fuck out. Before I throw your ass out.

Shay: I don't understand   (Her face was confuse) I came here to just show my respect. even though we anit cool you had alex's child and I respect you but If you don't want me here for you am be here for Alex.

Alex: Okay listen yall both shut the hell up we not funnah do this Shay come outside and let me hollar at you for a second. And Teya chill out, All this you doing is you making a big deal out of nothing.

I opened the door and meet with Shay outside of the hosptial room so we can talk. but, then my grandmother fainted. What the fuck man this is some bullshit. am done am so done. Shay rushed to her doing here shit trying to keep my Grandma in good condition making her have the water and air she need and the doctors came to get her n gave us some bad news.