Cold, & Alone. But still going to do me.

Chapter 18

* Teya

I had to get back on my feet we buried my son next to Alex's grandmother. I loved that boy so much now he's gone. It's been 2 years and im very happy. Me and Alex worked are difference out. We have 2 kids . A boy and a girl. I'm very happy that God blessed me. Alex stop the drug dealer thing I told him I would leave him and take my kids with me , if he didn't stop. It snapped him back to me and he acted so right. we have sex every day I work and I'm a full time mother of 2. I be needing some good head at times. I deserve that shit. I miss Nana so much she was my bestfriend she died a year ago she was only there for my birth of my son August she saw him for 4 months after that she passed away. she loved August so much. Mc'Kayla didn't get the chance to meet Nana but we have lots of pictures for her. Theres alot going on that I haven't told Alex. I got my tubes tide after Mc'Kayla every day and every night Alex thinks there is something wrong with his friend. He wants to have another baby. his pull out game to weak so I had to stop that shit be4 I could get anymore kids. 2 is enough to handle right now. Don't get me wrong I love kids I love mines to the core but we busy . To much mouth to feed. Alex has his own company and I'm a nurse but that's not the problem I know I'm wrong for not talking to him about it after all he is my husband.

Every weekend I got see Nana and my son. I never miss a weekend where I don't see them. I consider it as a see you later not a goodbye. God has both of them for me and one day we will all see each other. I can't wait to see miss. Nana up in heaven lol Were going to be having so much fun. I got a group of friends I hang with no one from high school I decide to dropped them because they didn't want to see me to go high. They though just because I lost my baby that I couldn't get my life back together.

* Fred

I'm down here in cali with Shay. I kinda did alot of stuff to hurt her. I broke her I show that I'm sorry every day by hanging out with Zyon and always there to be a leading hand for Shay. We've gotten closer I can actually say she is happy. Wade is cheating on her on the low and I don't like no nigga disrepecting my family. So today I'm show Shay all the videos and pictures and text messages I found and got from him. Some of the girls he was fucking with messed with me back in the day so I asked them for a favor. I had to give them the dick first becuz I know they missed me. But honestly I'm in love with Shay , I fucked u badly . I know she will never take me but after I show her this text messages and stuff I'm give her her time to grieve and just ask her out on a date surprise her you know. I'm still in the gang always will. Stay making money any how I can get it. I don't want to settle for a job right now. I want to see Zyon grow up into a adult doe. He calls me daddy I don't think Alex knows every time Shay trys to correct him he just does it again. I'm cool with that because I don't mind. he's a good kid. I want to be the man that say marrys to. She have not had sex with wade. She tells me the details cause i'm the bestfriend but , I really want to be more then that doe. It's crazy I can see Shay doesn't know that her farther is in Jail I like to keep that way. After the cops busted a cap in my ass. I had to send them for his ass to cause I wasn't going to go down like that. Her mother well she went to rehab I need to keep up with her family. I know they did her wrong but, I think everyone deserve a second chance. Since I got mines I don't want to mess it up.