Cold, & Alone. But still going to do me.

Chapter 1

"Hello everyone I am sorry about the previous book. But that will be deleted soon. This is a new book & it will be completed. I really feel good about this. My followers and readers, The little that I have but I am thankful. I ask that you comment like and share. Give me your opinion & if you a silent reader hit me on my inbox.

Thank you,

-Alex

The sun is so hot down here in Florida. I Am tried of moving around. Hi, my name is LaShay. I know a gehhto name right I go by Shay now because I wanted to leave that behind new me. I Am 16 years old. My favorite color is black and gold; I know its kinda weird but I like it am different. I just moved down here with my annoying cousin and her kids. She been good to me. I love them but her kids are just straight up BAD. They cute but just Bad. My parents? Well my mom she is living the life at her crib in Los Angeles. My father well he is in New York with my half sisters and his girlfriend. My mom and dad split up but I really didn't care I knew it was going to happen with all the fighting they did. I begged them one night for me to move in with my cousin Gladys , Surprising that they said yes. Next day I was in Florida . I don't have no brothers no sisters. Only 3 half sister's from my farther but I still think am the only child.

I have a best friend named Alex but he just not messing with me so IDC. I don't have no friends but him. That why I don't have no drama in my life. But I do have some mess up things going in my life. I was raped & abuse by one of my ex's but its cool I don't let that define me only Alex knows about it. I keep it to myself I stay low. If I told my parents they would of said I was asking for it. So I never bothered to tell. I Am currently single & I am kinda lonely but I will get over it. "Hello, you not going to come over LaShay I anit fucking playing with you. You always trying to play games it's Yes or no" Devan said "I Am not playing and if you want to see me you should ask nicely" I spoked Thur the phone. Devan was my fuck buddy I guess but we never gave each other a title. I didn't want him to be calling me girlfriend & he wasn't going to call me his girl, Not saying we anit like each other on that level but I just didn't want to be in a relationship at the time I just wanted sex. Me and Devan know each other for years I just stop messing with him. Plus we only had sex 4 times nothing serious. "O so you don't miss me." He said "No I really don't plus I just don't want to mess with you like that I just want to be friends again" I shrugged thur the phone. "Alright Shay just call me if you need something alright. I Am Always here " He exclaimed.

I got inside the house I started to unpack my suitcase that was just sitten here every since I came from New York. The twins came running in my room. " Auntie Shay, tell Chris to leave me alone."Jerome spoke "y'all need to stop you guys are brothers." I said sternly they said sorry to each other & left my room. Gladys came 5 mins after telling me to hurry up and get ready because we was leaving to drop the kids at Auntie house down town. I've realized down here I have a lot of family I don't know why mom & dad kept me in the hell hold in New York. After we dropped the kids at Auntie's house Gladys dropped me at Alex's crib & she went on with her business. I really didn't mind it though I don't tell her my business that much because I like to keep it to myself ,God or Alex.

"You know what I really don't care Teya that's not my baby. I wrapped up when I mess around with you so don't be given me that B.S Next time keep your legs close & maybe you won't get pregnant again" He said Thur the phone. I walked in his room he was just standing up talking to Teya he saw me and jump on me. "Hi sister , What you doing here?" "Alex get off of me "he dropped me on the floor "Alright " he kissed my temple. I got up. "What I can't come see my annoying best friend no more" I looked at him side ways. "Naw you good mama, just let me finish talking to Teya & we can talk" ,"alright " He sat down &I sat on his bed. He was just being nasty and rude to Teya but idk that's not my place. 10 mins after he got off the phone. "So you got a other female pregnant huh?" "LaShay don't start that shit man. I anit get nobody pregnant and Teya saying she think she pregnant she went to the drug store & bought a pregnancy test and said it was positive. But I don't think that's my baby she kept on cheating on me when we was in a relationship and I only messed around with her twice and when I did I rapped it up." He said loudly I just look at him. He don't tell me shit anymore he just been flawing me out and really at this point I don't even think were best friends. "Alright I guess, Can I get something to wear". " Why" "Never mind then" I walk out his room and called Devan to come pick me up he was such an ass. I walked passed Grandma and told her I was leaving because Alex was being mean.

Devan came in 5mins "LaShay ,LaShay fucking Alexandra Jackson get in the fucking car and you funnah see what's going to happen" Alex said I stop and stayed where I was he catched up to me. "I Am sorry Shay but I'm just stress about this shit man. Can you stay the night and let's do best friend's night?" "Why you always acting like this? You changing on me man and I don't like it! I Am going home." I said. I got in the car and Devan was about to drive but Alex stupid ass walked to the car. "Yo, home boy give me a minute" he said looking at Devan. He nodded back in response. "Shay really, Get out the fucking car" "Nope am good Devan take me to your crib" he open the car door and lifted me up he took my stuff with his free hand. "Alexander put me fucking down" yea we had the same name but Alexandra is my middle name and Alexander is his first name. I hated that. "What you going to do about it, A my man sorry but tonight not your lucky night he said to Devan and then he walked in his house and dragged me upstairs. I called his grandma for help no answer. " Shut up LaShay be4 you wake her up" I called his grandma my grandma . "Am going home" I stood up and he yanked me back down to the bed.

"Can you let me explain Shay....... Am sorry that I've been flawing you out. You my best friend I don't like seeing you like this" He kissed my temple. "W.e man" "So you mad still? I said sorry why you always catching a attitude be real with me man what you want from me" I looked at him crazy something just told me to say it so I did. "Every since I told you that I got something for you you just push me aside like am nothing" I said straight up. "Well, Shay I am sorry you feel like that but I really haven't I just been going Thur some things. But I will and can make it up to you, just stop being mad at me I don't like my BEST FRIEND mad at me" he said looking at me.

I didn't know what to say. Alex moved down here with me. I had to begged his grandma and him. It took months until they finally said yes because they said I was annoying them. That night Alex cheered me up we talked and open up more. I really felt like I was alone on low key because I didn't tell him about me. And what's been going on.
Hi, readers I hoped you liked it what do you think should happen next? Help a girl out!