Cold, & Alone. But still going to do me.

Chapter11

Devan (Media)

*Devan

Long day at work today. So far me and Shay have been on good terms she is my light. I anit saying I love her but I don't want her out of my life either.

  I entered the house and called for her but no answer. "Baby!" I yelled . No answer I walked into the kitchen and dropped my keys on the kitchen counter. The house look clean, every since Shay been staying here she been doing her thing she even change a couple of things but I didn't mind. I saw a note on the frigde door saying "Hey Devan, sorry I didn't text you or call. But, I will be at dance rehearsals till 6. P.s there is food on the stove enjoy" I smiled as I read the note again. I went in the shower took a shower for 35mins and started digging in Shay food. Girl can throw down in the kitchen . I decided to stay home and wait for bae to come home. I cleaned up the mess I made and place the pots in the refrigerator. Then I heard a knock on my door, "What you doing here girl you know you can't be here. Shay will be here any min"

*Shay

I got dress and did my hair. I anit the makeup type of chick so I just filled in my eye brows and put my eye lashes on. I put my hair and a high top bun. I decide to look like a tomboy. I went with the I Am a Christian but still beat your behind if you try my set look. I wore blue ,white with silver jewelry. I really didn't want to go all out.

  Alex was suppose to meet me at Devan's crib but no where in hell I was going to disrespect Devan fine ass like that. Me and him where getting closer And am having strong feelings for him. I told Alex to meet me at Gladys house. He didn't know I moved in with Devan and I wasn't planning on telling.

I walked in the house and Alex was already there he was playing with the kids and just chilling with Gladys. I said Hi to everyone and kissed everyone. I messed with the kids be cuz I haven't seen them snice last week.

After, I grabbed Alex,we started talking; he was just so dam tense and stress. It wasn't even funny he was angry and had a negative attitude. "How is the baby and Teya" I asked. He looked me upside my head."There fine but Shay talk to me please. Am going thur a lot . I don't know what to do. I don't think I want to be a farther. I am not ready Shay. Fuck!" He yelled I sat closer to him and held him tight while tears ran down his face he started talking about Teya and how she done with him. How she almost lost the Baby 3 months in. And how his grandma had just found out she had breast cancer. He was fighting me but I held him tight to me as much as my small body could, I rubbed his back and told him everything will be okay. I didn't know what to say to him I was just thinking about Alex he was going to be a farther  just in less then 2months. "I wished you fought for me" I said to him. "I Am sorry Shay I just got a lot going on plus I thought you anit want me in your life so I left." He said as he manned up to talk to me.

"I wanted you to fight for me Alex but you didn't. You know I hate the fact you got her pregnant and I hate the fact that you left me the day after I got raped." I exclaimed

  We talked for hours I gave him some tips for Teya and I told him I will go with him to everyone medical appointments that grandma had. "Alex he's coming so you need to man up. You going through a lot but, that don't mean that you have a excuse to not be in your child's life. All I can tell you is sit down with every and try to work it out. But you also have to fix yourself first. I know it's to much but God has given you a blessing so take care of it" I spoke sternly I was going to be late for rehearsals so me and Alex said are good byes.

After, rehearsals I quickly went home to Devan me and him wasn't going out we're where doing are thing. I entered my house and saw some bitch given Devan head he was groaning and moaning. I cleared my throat to let them know I was here.

  "Damm baby am so sorry" he said I walked up to him and slapped the shit out of him. In my heart I was asking God for strength. "You actually tried me Devan. And the fact that you down graded" he tried putting his cloths on the hoe that was sucking his dick was rapping out the mouth. One thing led to another an hour later cops were leaving our or  Devan's house.
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