Cold, & Alone. But still going to do me.

Chapter 14

*Alex

"You every felt alone Alex. Like there Anit no point of living anymore." She said softly as she looked the gun down. "Shay baby, What you doing? You can't do this to yourself baby. Look at all the shit you went through-" I said before she cut me off " what do you mean Alex. I was raped and abused by my ex boyfriend who was hired by my farther. Which I don't know why by the way. I have the full blown sickle cell. My mom hates me. Devon cheated on me. You loving Teya knowing I got feelings for you. I don't have no one, I feel like am alone in this. I only got God right now. You fucking left me when I needed you, Now you having a child with her" she said as a drop of tear fell from her right eye. "LaShay, Am sorry for everything Shay don't kill your self you like- you is my little sister I got made feelings for you but Shay you got to understand am not feeling you that way. And if I did I wouldn't let you know, because your like my little sister. Every thing happens for a reason baby. And you've gotten stronger because of it." I replied she didn't even look my way. She just looked down at the gun, then up the ceiling. "I need you" she said to the ceiling. She whipped a couple of tears that had fallen from her eyes. She laid the gun on my office desk , got her stuff and left.

*Devon

I just been sitting here on my sofa smoking some weed I haven't eaten nor showered. I just been thinking about what I did to Shay.How I could fix it. I didn't sleep last night I stayed in my bedroom in the dark. I guess I wanted to see Shay leave. She didn't even come into my room. She just took a shower in the guest bathroom and got her bags then left.

"Boom. Boom"

"Can you open the door its me." I got up thinking it was Shay but it was just Stacey from last night. The girl that was sucking my dick."bro what your ass want dwag."

"Look what she did to me Devon. I need to get my shit right I need a place to stay. Jim kicked me out last night. I don't have no where else to go." She said looking at me. "You better get your bitch ass away from my house" "Devon don't be like that I can give you everything you need baby" she said enter my house as she tugged on my belt. "Baby you know you miss my pussy" she unzipped my pants closed the door. I pushed her head down to my man hood so she can suck my dick up. I need a stress reliever and the weed Anit cutting it.

*Shay

"I love you forever, I love you forever I love forever lord"
"Will worship forever will worship forever, will worship forever lord."

A tear fell from my eye. After that I plan on not crying anymore. I made a right turn as my radio was singing my song. I didn't do it because I felt like I would disappoint God so much. That he would never forgive me. So I just drove to any where my car would take me. I didn't know where I was going I just need time alone. Some space. I hopped in my car and drove to where every I could reach. "Hello" I said with a sadden voice. I put it in my mind while I was driving that I wasn't going to play the victim anymore that I wasn't going to live on others but I will be living for me and God. "Where are you?" Alex said "Am in north port" I replied " That's a 3 hour drive it's 11 o'clock Shay,Am coming to get you" he yelled "I will be staying at a hotel for the night I will be coming home first thing in the morning so its fine." "Okay call me if anything goes wrong okay" he said . "I will" I hung up. I wasn't going to no hotel I didn't even have cash on me I left my wallet in Alex's office.

I parked my car in a parking lot. I bent my chair back trying to get comfortable as I turned my car off. I played Tye tribett on Pandora radio on my phone . I started drifting off to sleep but some strange guy nocked on my glass window. I jumped "excuse me sir are you lost or something?" I was frightening but I Anit crazy unlocking the door or pulling down my window. I don't know the man and am in a empty parking lot. Like what is he doing here. He is handsome, light skinned, brown big hazily eyes with tattoos on his right arm and a tattoo on The side of his neck. "Ma'ma " he said nocking me back to earth. I shooked my head" are you lost?" I asked this man was to fine to be lost he just couldn't stop staring into my eyes. "No I just see you in the car like you crazy, do you know what part of North port you at" he replied I decide to pull down my window "No ...... Why?" "Okay lady there is a hotel right down the block you in the gang streets at this time and its about to be midnight." He stated I looked at my watch and saw it was 11:45. This boy had swag from head to toe. He looked about 20 or 21 he had a muscular body. Probably 5'11 " look sir I dot have no cash on me right now." I stated as I got out the car. I looked at my surrounding and saw a whole bunch of thugs out here, a couple of women too. "I know we just ment but am need you to follow me. Because right now a beautiful women like you not suppose to be out her unless you making some quick cash. And since you don't know where you at then follow me to the hotel am staying over there." He said " I don't think so. I will just call my friend to send me some cash on my card." I said "look women I Anit trying to be rude or disrespectful but this is not where you should be. So follow me with your car to the hotel before those dome ass thugs over there try to fuck the shit out of you." He said sternly I didn't even bother to look back I nodded my head got in my car. I called Alex and told him what was going on. I even asked him to send me some cash because I didn't have none on me.

*Alex

I am so worried about Shay, sometimes I just want to exchange a little words of mines to her. "Baby I think I am going to labor" Teya said as she held her stomach noooo nooo noo not right now. Not right now "Ahhh" she yelled I quickly helped her up and rushed her to the hospital. After they got her check up and into the hospital room. They said something that Teya couldn't quite understand she started to lose it. I was holding her so tight we both was crying. This can't be happening. "Get the fuck out Now get out. leave y'all shit and let me and my girlfriend have some privacy" I stated as I slammed the door. This can't be happening.