Cold, & Alone. But still going to do me.

Chapter 20

Moving Day

*Shay 

Today is moving day. It's been a week since the situation happened with Wade. I felt like I need to move as soon as possible. I just really can't handle this anymore. I'm a smart business woman. I am one of a kind woman. I know how to cook , clean, I went to college but I dropped out because of Zyon.  I'm a good woman why can't I have good descent man. I feel like all the good ones are taken away. I speak 3 different languages. I'm going to be a head starter in this business soon. I have the looks I got the brains . I just feel like niggas are dome this days they just don't want to settle.  That day that everything happened. Fred was there. I kinda actually felt like I was being comforted by someone who loves me. I lost my feelings for him when he keep on abusing me and I just don't think I can have a relationship like that with him .  He will be a great father, He loves Zyon. I just want to settle down.  If Fred is the person I'm suppose to give my all to then okay. I'm not going to lie he makes me feel some type of way (GOOD WAY). When he said those words to me It hit me hard cause I never thought he could be into me. I know he was before when we had are relationship, the first time we ment. But, He got caught with the money life did what he had to do. I can't say I'm mad at him I really can careless of what happened. I just don't want nothing to every happen like that to me every again. I feel like I really don't deserve love. Cause I loved Alex...... He loved me but not in the same way I wanted him to love me. So I just accept the fact that it's just me and my baby boy Zyon. I'm okay with that cause my love can wait I need to make sure my baby gets the love and every thing he needs from me as a mother. He's my bestfriend after God. I didn't want to tell Alex that I'm flying down. We packed everything that I wanted from my house into the delivery turcks. Yes , I did say Trucks. 

    "You guys?? Are you guys ready?" I said to Zyon and Fred

I was heading to a quick business meeting .I need to make sure everything was okay. That we got everything we needed because I bought this house after I'm done I want the homeless people to have it there's a family that I've wanted to have this house that's why I kept the furniture. I bought them clothes its a couple with 2 kids a boy and a girl. I just want to give a family something I never had. 

"Hey Shay, Where almost done just have to get your shoes and stuff."

"No baby. Leave that for the lady she has the same size as me leave everything. I just took my personal stuff and some clothes to get me thur the week. I just need you to get Zyon stuff everything in his room I'm taking cause those shits cost me a lot of money."

"Okay" Fred said 

I went to check on the new family and they were happy and settling in. I had to find Dean (The Father) a job and his wife so I did. The kids I apply them for school for when summer is over they can start.  This house was big. Had 4 bedrooms 3 bathrooms a swimming pool,a dance studio, A gym, A kitchen and a living room; with a big back yard. I hope they really like this place . Cause I wasn't even home to enjoy it like that cause I was at work working full time.

"How are you guys doing?" I said to them

"We doing fine thanks to you. I'm start cooking some breakfast you want some?" Janne said

"No it's okay Janne I'm going to a 30 min meeting then meeting Zyon and Fred at the airport."

"Okay, Well thanks for everything. Call us if you need anything. We really are very grateful for everything you've done. "

I gave her a hug and gave her a kiss on the forehead" You welcome Mama. Don't worry about it."

I gave her another hug, said bye to the kids and gave Dean there father a hug then was on my way. I was looking for Zyon cause He had to go to a Doctor's appointment before we were on the plane to Florida. 

"Baby you got all your stuff?" I said to him

He was on the floor playing with his toys.  I bent down started putting them in the box. I put them in the truck . That was the last of everything. Fred has some of his thug ass friends here helping me. I was grateful and everything but, I just really don't mess with people like that there nice and stuff but I keep my distance. I guess they took Zyon's stuff from his room I garbbed Zyon  took him to Fred.

"Baby I'm leaving I will meet you and uncle Fred at the airport. So we can see Daddy."

My baby looked clueless he was happy. he was just playing with Fred. I gave him a kiss and he grabbed my cheeks with his little hands and gave me a nice long kiss on the cheek, he lift alot of spit on my face but it's okay. "Bye Mommy" He said

I was smiling he made my day. I gave him a long hug . Kiss fred on the cheek and told him to meet me at the airport.

"I got him mama the truck are leaving in 5 . I will bring him to the appointment. You seriously bring me back to Florida?" He shooked his head

I just laughed he hates the Miama heat weather. I left went to my meeting.

* Alex

I talked to Teya about Shay and My son .  Shay was right about talking to Teya cause she didn't think my other kids should meet Zyon. We settle it but I will be damm if Teya think I'm not going to be a father to Zyon. She think cause I'm married to her she want's me all to her self. I understand that but I have a son with Shay, She must understand how I'm feeling. Shay suppose to come down  next week. I had to check the house she bought it's like 5 miles away from my house. She said she wanted it to be close and away from drama. I understand, she bought the house 4 days ago she came down here and bought it. she sent me a text this morning telling  me that the trucks are coming down today.  they not driving all the way down here there actually being put on a airplane. Shay is very over protected so she came here that day she bought the house and child proof everything she bought things already and put them in the house.

She's smart cause I would be a last day nigga. She gave me a extra key to the house for Zyon but also to make sure everything is in order. I made sure everything was okay, sent her a text.  The days are going fast and I can't wait to see my son soon. She bought a 5 bedroom house , with 4 bathrooms  . she wanted more room since Zyon has a brother and sister  she wanted them to have a room just in case they stay over some nights. She had a guest room and the 3 other rooms were for her , Fred, and my son Zyon. I locked the door, put her extra key under her door matt. She told me to keep it but I just want to make are friendship is vaild as much as possible because she's the mother of my child. I went home took a shower. Played with my kids they bring me joy. They have so much energy and I'm very excited.

*Fred

Man I hate the weather up in Fl . It's like one mintue it's hot as hell then it's starts pouring rain. then sun again. I just Don't like Florida for that reason. The trucks left and I need to bring Zyon to the Doctor's cause Shay don't want to go to Florida and he sick or has something. I took him but I had to make sure my car her car was on the next airplane to Florida.

25mintues later 

I was on my way to the airport since the doctor's office was next to the airport it was good cause while Zyon was in the doctor's I was making sure we had everything. When he got done. Shay texted me she will be there soon. We was on a jet so it was just me and them 2. I had to make sure Zyon was okay. He's a son that I never had.

I loved that boy We got checked in and was on the airplane just waiting for the Queen to get her. She my everything, Even if she don't accpect me as a boyfriend I'm good I'm giving her space she just got off a relationship and I need her life to be okay. I'm here to make sure that. 

"Hey sorry I'm late."

"It's okay mama. Let's go home. You told Alex you coming down"

"No I wanted to surprise him by showing his son to him, How was the appointment?"

"It was good" I said

we started talking she was tired so I promised her that we can just chill and get the house together.We got situated and the airplane started to leave. This was going to be long. I put Shay on my lap and she fell asleep. Zyon I put his chair back so he can sleep I just held Shay tight, fell asleep.

Zyon(Media)