Cold, & Alone. But still going to do me.

Chapter 17

2 years later....

*LaShay

I've been doing good. Theres alot to catch up on. I decided to move away I couldn't do it after Alex's grandmother died i just couldn't be there everything reminded me of her. Teya she doing good she got back on her feet and she had 2 kids with Alex. They still live in the same area . Sometimes I go vist. I really thought me and Alex would of worked out but we didn't. Currently I'm in a relationship with someone that has changed me. Not changed me for the worst for the better. He makes me smile day in and out and I'm very thankful that God brought peace to my heart. I vist Gladys in the kid's every now in then, they come down during the summer to spend time with me. While me and Alex arent close I have a baby boy by him. I didn't name him Jr because I know that would of killed Teya to the core. While she was on a break with Alex one night me and him just was hanging out catching up, We were drunk and we was visting Grandma at her grave. Don't get me wrong I really felt bad for doing it but I don't regert my beautiful little boy that I made. He's down here with me. I only talk to Alex here in there only because of are son. I losted all feelings for Alex even though he denied my son a thousand times. I still want him to be in my child's life. I had to take a DNA test to prove myself because he thought I was lying. I haven't had sex in a while Alex was the last. My boyfriend he's different he just loves me for who I'am.

I'm going to lay it down on him soon. I losted all contacts with my parents but I at least let them know that they had a grandchild. On the other hand Fred is still here he moved down with me. I put all those shit I had with him aside he's like my best friend but, I still keep in mind that he has a cold heart. He's like a big uncle to my Son. Even though Alex don't like Fred being around Our son I really don't give 2 fuck's.

Shay: Hey, Big boy you want mommy to feed you some food.

My son is the only thing I got right now he was the only reason why I changed . He gave me purpose. he shows me day by day that if no one got me God and him does I'm perfectly fine with that.

(He has his hands in his mouth moving around)

Wade: Baby you want me to feed him ( He said coming up to me)

Shay: No baby I'm fine I can handle him. (Phone rings)

Hello, Alex I can't talk right now.

Alex: Why not?

Shay: because I'm feeding your dam son good bye ( Hung up)

He stay trying to talk to me like leave me alone. He always trying to offer me money I don't need it. I didn't put him on child support or ask him for no money when it came to my son. I have a Job full time worker and it dam well pays me some good money. I wanted to go fancy and live down in Cali just to see how it looked and so far I love it. I finish feeding my son and took him to the park he's 1 half years old. He's my pride in Joy.

*Alex

Shay stay bringing niggas around my son. the fact that she moved down there pisst me off. She only did it for getting back at me after I told her / questioned her if that was my seed she was carrying. I need to make sure because I was going through alot at the moment I knew me and her had a one night stand. But, Shay she would always be on pills and stuff like that I was her bestfriend I knew. I felt like she wanted to trap me . Every since I said those words to her and asked her for a DNA she did everything on her own she didn't need me. My problem is Wade up there & Fred being a farther to my son. I don't like that. Shay is a beautiful girl she got back up so high .she independent , don't give a dam about nobody but Our son Zyon. It hurted me when she anit name him after me but Later on me and Teya got back together and we got married and we have 2 kids with each other. We stay down here in florida because my grandmother is buried down here and Every 2 weeks I come vist , talk to her. Tell her the "T" in my life and how I'm a proud dad of 3 and all that good stuff. I stop the drug shit. Teya didn't like that and I wanted to see my Baby girl and son grown up be4 I can die. I decide to start my own company so far it's been going great . Teya works to we have to work around the clock cause we have kids. we both want to be there for one another n are kids. so we make it work. I love Shay doe and she gone half across the world I don't blame her. MY grandmother died that mean I had to step up. I went to church and all that good stuff prayed ,got closer and just been holding to him.I miss my grandmother like a bitch but it's okay day by day I start to realize that she's in a better place. That one night stand with Shay i will treasure it forever. I don't remember a lot but what I do remember I cherish.