Chapter 16
What just happened yesterday?
Ano ng mangyayari ngayon? Hindi ba magiging awkward ang mga bagay? My God, I don't know what happened.
I just knew he confessed and later on things got complicated. Wala raw siyang alam sa panliligaw. I just can't say yes just because the feeling is mutual, I also need to know how he treats a girl.
It's undeniable. He has the talent, the visuals, and the brain, I can no longer ask for anything. Hindi mahirap magkagusto sa kagaya niya, eh. Ang akin lang, hindi ko matanggap dahil alam kong hindi magugustuhan ng mga tao. Anak ng mayor? Ako? Ano nalang ang sasabihin ng mga tao. I know what they'll say doesn't matter but I just can't resist it. It's bothering my mental health.
Pumasok na ako loob ng classroom. I went straight to my seat and I saw a rose. I grabbed it and read the note.
'I don't know where to start. I guess a rose will do.'
Is this how he'll treat his girl? Hmm... not bad.
Umupo na ako sa aking upuan. I can see that their eyes are on me. Wait... were they here already when Maz dropped this off? Gosh, that doesn't sound good.
I didn't mind their eyes for a second and stared at the flower. It's nice. Bagong bili pa ata 'to, presko pa kasi.
I don't know where to put it, I guess I'll just place it in between the pages of my extra notebook.
I was about to get the notebook from the bag when I saw Dave on his seat. Kanina pa siya diyan? I didn't notice him at all.
He looked at the flower I'm holding then looked at me. He forced a smile and said, "I'm happy for you."
"T-Thank you." I stuttered.
Tama ba 'yong sinabi ko? Jenim, tanga!
Kinuha ko nalang ang notebook ko at nilagay ang bulaklak sa pagitan ng una at pangalawang pahina ng kuwaderno ko. I wrote the date today and pasted the letter.
Nilagay ko ulit sa bag ko ang notebook. Tiningnan ko si Dave at nakaharap siya sa isang libro. What was that a while ago? Pilit ang mga ngiti niya, hindi ako sanay.
Goodness, Jenim! After you didn't gave him a chance, you entertained a man tapos kapatid pa niya. Teka... alam ba niyang kay Maz galing?
I squeezed my hair out of frustration. Bakit ganito?
Dumating na ang guro namin at nagsimulang magturo. I somehow managed to focus. It's not okay if I'll get preoccupied with stuffs that I shouldn't be thinking of.
Ilang oras, ilang guro, at ilang subjects ang lumipas at lunch break na rin. Puro lectures today, kaya ayun, puro quizzes naman bukas.
I glanced at Dave. Nagliligpit siya ng mga gamit niya. I composed myself before talking to him.
"Uhm... s-sabay na t-tayong mag lunch." nauutal kong saad.
"Pass muna ako. Mayro'n kasi akong kasabay na mag-lunch. She's probably waiting by now." sabi niya
She?
"Gano'n ba? Sige." sabi ko at tumango-tango.
"Alam mo, Jenim, you shouldn't be overthinking. We're cool, okay? Just give me time. Kailangan ko 'yon para mahanap ko 'yong sarili ko. Kasalanan ko, nagpadalos-dalos kasi ako, hindi ako nag-isip." sabi niya.
"Hindi mo kasa-"
He placed his finger in between of my lips to silence me. "Don't give me false hopes, okay? Nakikita kong masaya ka, sapat na 'yon para sa akin. We're still friends." he then patted my head.
I miss this.
I gave him a friendly hug at tinugon niya 'yon.
"I promise to find myself so that I can finally face you, hindi ko kasi kayang iharap ang sarili ko sa'yo ngayon." sabi niya at lumabas na.
I somehow felt happy. Atleast I know what he's up to. Finding himself, huh? Gano'n ba kalakas ang epekto ng ginawa ko sa kanya at umabot siya sa punto na nawala niya ang sarili niya?
Wait... he's having lunch with a girl.
Out of nowhere I suddenly hurried to the canteen. Saan ba sila posibleng kakain? Why am I even curious?
You didn't give him a chance and you're acting this way, Jenim?! What a shame!
Bahala na.
Umupo ako sa isang bakanteng upuan. Nakita ko si Dave na nakapila para bumili ng pagkain. Paminsan-minsan ko itong sinusulyapan hanggang sa natapos siya. Sinundan ko siya ng tingin. I saw him stopped at a table with a girl and she's pretty.
Pamilyar sa'kin 'tong babaeng 'to, taga ibang section.
Wala naman silang ibang ginagawa kundi kumain. May nilabas na papel si Dave at tinignan ito ng babae. I saw her write something on it. The both of then just kept on writing at a single paper while they're eating.
They are laughing. How I missed those laugh of his.
"Hey! Thank God I found you here."
I startled.
Bakit ba kasi palaging nambibigla 'tong isang 'to?
"I went to your classroom. Wala ka na do'n, natagalan kasi kaming i-dismiss." he said.
Tumango ako. We never had a lunch together, just the two of us here in school. Kung sabay man kaming kumain ay sa kasama rin namin ang clubmates namin.
Biglang napadpad sa'min ang mga tingin ng tao sa loob ng canteen. Yumuko ako at patuloy sa pagkain.
I sensed Maz, bringing out his food and started eating.
"Did you received it a while ago?" he asked.
Tumingin ako sa kanya.
"You mean the flowers? Yes." I answered.
"Maaga talaga akong pumunta ng school para lang do'n." sabi pa niya at sinubuan ang sarili.
Wow, ha?
"Hindi ko namang sinabing gawin mo 'yon, ah? Salamat?" I said in a sarcastic way.
He grinned.
Diyos ko. Umayos ka, Jenim.
"D-Do you like it?" nahihiya niyang tanong at tumingin sa ibang direksiyon.
God... he looks so good when he's shy.
"I do. Thank you." I answered and smiled.
"Then all I need to do is to be consistent so that you will not only like the roses I'll give you but also me."
I never knew Maz had this sweet mouth.
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