𝓑𝓲𝓷𝓭 S. Aizawa

Chapter 35 | Shower

The things I can't stop being messed up about is I've never gotten it easy, I've worked for years waiting to get this teacher job. I went through years as a kid, witnessing murders, everyday. The fact that they weren't never found out infuriates me, so many people missing, everywhere. In the end they never got caught, I didn't want to deal with that. The easy way out was to burn everything to the ground, but even that would end in families still wondering where their missing relative is. So many families all over the world went through heartbreak because of them, they traveled to so many places. Just to kill, dragging me along with them. As a kid I lived the rest of my life with some weird aunt, she was probably one of the weirdest people I've met. She was an Aunt on my dad's side so I guess that explained it, but even she gave off serial killer vibes. What's scares me is that things are passed down, that might even be where I got my autopilot from.

It infuriates me, but what eases it is that neither of my parents had any type of powerful quirks, although I was given a robust quirk. It came around when I was about 5 or 6. My parents died not too later on, that's when I started to get picked on.

Besides my family being murderers, I wouldn't change anything because I wouldn't have had gotten here. My past was my motivation to become better. For a while before and after I became a Pro Hero, I was in some type of state I couldn't get out of. I felt like every day was the same, as miserable as the last. Missions always felt the same, with my crappy weak team. Now, I'm in a school with some of the most powerful Hero's in the world. It made me feel great, affirming myself I deserved to be in a school and on a team with powerful people. I was pretty powerful too, what sucks is nobody cared. They just stuck me in a lousy team that got minor missions, it sucked. Everything it so much better now, that is everything except Aizawa.

From day one he's been torturing for who knows why. I apologized to him and he slapped back with some snide remark, all I want is to be a teacher right beside him. Does he see me as a threat? Am I not good enough to be here? Does he think I'm weak and bullying me around will show who's more powerful? He needs to get a grip and think about other people, he's selfish and he needs to get over himself. Just because he's good looking doesn't give him a right to choose what he can do or say to a person that continuously is annoyed by him. I know he can see that he's annoying me, he's just choosing to ignore it. I really do want to know the real reason he's being such a dick, see into his mind for just a minute. I just can't believe ever since I was between a kid and a teen I thought Aizawa could have been one of the coolest Pro Hero's, and nicest. I look back now and realize how naive I was, but how could I know?

Honestly I went to this school for the students but I also went for the teachers, I just wish I could communicate freely with Aizawa. I wanna see the sweet Aizawa Recovery Girl is always talking about. It's annoying thinking over and over again how he thinks he can instantly give me rules to follow. I can't even express my anger because I don't know how, I can't talk to him and I can't walk. He's just going to be a prick like every other time we talk. I mean, yes, in a way he does seem a bit nicer today. That's only because he has to though, he took me in. I wish Midnight had taken me in, she radiated such a kind and bright aura, I wanted to be around her. That's almost the same with Aizawa I'm afraid to say, he has some type of aura I can't put my finger on. I hate it but I have a sort of inclination for it, a type of thirst.

I hate to say it but I can't fully hate him, I don't know why. I really want to but I can't, maybe some part of me is still holding onto that little girl fantasy that Aizawa is just a secret softie. That might be what it is, or it could be something else.