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epilogue

Jimin's POV

I quickly woke up, eyes wandering around and breathing heavily. I looked around, eyes in search for that one figure.

"R-rosé!" I breathed heavily. Someone started to shook me hard from beside and started to yell my name loud. I looked at the guy looking at me, eyes wide in concerned and relief. Taehyung...

I held onto Taehyung and shook him, my voice was weak. "Where's Rosé? Tell me, Tae!" Despite the queries of why I am on a bed, wearing all blue and seeing hospital things surrounding me. "Taehyung, please where is Rosé?" I shook him again. Taehyung shook me back, a worried expression on his face. "What are you talking about? Jimin, are you feeling better now?" He asked, pushing away my question about Rosé. I sighed and decided to answer his questions, despite the thrumming against my chest that demanded the answers about Rosé.

I looked around and felt dizzy but blinked thrice before I looked up at Taehyung. "Where am I? Why am I here?"

Taehyung looked at me, worried. He sighed, "Jimin, you met with a serious car accident and fell into coma state for a year. You finally woke up after our cries to god. I saw you shaking so hard on your bed and there were tears. God, you didn't know how scared I was." He uttered as he held onto my shoulders.

I looked down at my clothed lap. Coma... accident... Rosé... I clutched onto the fabric and looked at him, eyes with tears. "T-tae," I croaked, "Please, tell me where is Rosé?"

Just when I asked, the door flew open and 5 figures entered rushing, faces filled with worry. I recognized them a second after. Jin hyung, Yoongi hyung, Hoseok hyung, Joonie hyung and Jungkook. They surrounded my bed and bombarded me with questions.

"Are you okay, Jimin-ah?"

"Do you remember us? Please speak!"

I looked down at my lap, "I'm fine and I remember you guys, don't worry." A huge wave of sighs came to my hearing.

I looked up to each of them, my eyes filled with tears. "Where is Rosé? Please tell me."

I saw how their eyes changed to a confused one, how they looked at each other, sending each other questions through telepathy.

Jin hyung looked at me, a little smile on his face. "Jimin-ah, we don't know anyone named Rosé..." I looked down, "You won't know... You guys never met her. I met her."

Hoseok hyung looked over at me and then at the rest. "Jimin-ah," He began. "I don't want to make you sad but this is the truth; You must be dreaming about Rosé," He said. I clutched onto the sheets, not believing it. "You have been in coma for months so she must be an imagination you created while being asleep."

I breathed heavily. No, it can't be. It felt so real.. I could still feel her touch. No, they must be lying. This can't be.

"You know, maybe I can find out about her? I am a Police Officer." Jungkook said after the few seconds of silence. My head jolted up at him, eyes pleading him. "Please.." My voice was uncontrollably weak as I pleaded him. The guys were looking at me with a concerning look as Jungkook nodded. "I'll ask the officers," Jungkook said and left the room.

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a few hours later
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Yoongi hyung was asleep on the couch opposite my bed and Jin hyung along with Namjoon hyung were beside him. Hoseok hyung needed to go to the restroom while Taehyung went to the store downstairs to buy something for us all.

Footsteps were heard from outside the room before the door opened, revealing the 2 guys; Jungkook and Taehyung. After seeing them, Jin hyung shook awake Yoongi hyung and at the exact same time, Hoseok hyung came entering the room.

All eyes were fixated at Jungkook as we awaited for his response.

"So, we were researching about the girl you mentioned and," He licked his lips as he looked over at me, looking apologetic. "The girl was not even there in the records. It was as if she didn't exist. Sorry Jimin hyung but she must've been your imagination."

Those sentences broke me as I shook my head, not believing him. "You're lying. You must be! She was there for me! I could still feel her presence... You guys stop lying, please." I muttered. I didn't even wanna believe that. 

They must be caught in a lie.

"I'm not lying, hyung." Jungkook muttered. I shook my head. "Get out," I mumbled too softly. "Please just get out."

The 6 guys looked at me, concerned and worried. Slowly, one by one they left. I lied down and stared at the white ceiling.

Did I fall for someone who doesn't even exist?

It doesn't feel right, though... I could still feel her lingering touch. I could still feel her presence as if she was with me a second ago. She must be real...

[ days after Jimin get discharged ]

After getting discharged, I hurriedly went to the park where I usually go to when I feel negative And, today I was going there because I felt lost, alone. I didn't know what to do. Rosé was real but they said she isn't. I could still feel her as if it was just yesterday. I didn't wanna believe that.

I walked slowly. It was night and as usual, a cool wind always blew. The feeling was always nice when I feel bad. Dead leaves scrunched under my feet at every step I took. My hands were shoved in my hoodie's pocket as I walked.

At a distance, I heard a loud whimper. Curious, I followed the sound source and watched where a girl stood against the wooden railings of the bridge, below her was water that was deep as from what I remembered from my last visit.

She was sniffing as she spoke to herself. I watched her, feeling a sense familiarity washing over me. Her figure, her side profile, her hair which was blonde. I could see Rosé.

I smiled hugely as I ran towards her, "Rosé!" Abruptly, the girl looked over at me with wide eyes. I was grinning, knowing that she exists now but her next actions surprised and scared me because she jumped.

She jumped.

I ran and looked over the railings. My head thrummed hard. I didn't know what to do. The height of the water level and the bridge was too high and the depth of the water was too deep that could've drown anyone.

Immediately, my hand grabbed my phone as I dialed for the police.

[ a few hours later ]

I stood in front of her bed. She looked exactly like what I saw in my so called 'dream'. I looked at the monitor that showcased if she was alive or not. Her heart was beating. I sighed feeling relief as I looked at her face.

But, I wasn't really expecting that one long beep sound. I looked over at her monitor, my eyes widening.

"D-doctor!" I screamed when I saw the straight, green line. No, no she can't die!

Nurses and a doctor barged in and ran straight to Rosé. The doctor brought up a defibrillator and started to revive Rosé. Tears ran down my cheeks as I watched the doctor charging volts through her chest.

Wake up, Rosie... Don't go. Please.

I pleaded as I watched her body jumping up on the bed.

A few minutes passed and the monitor still showed the straight, green line. The doctors were trying so hard till they stopped.

The placed the defibrillator down and started to check her heartbeat on her chest and on her wrist. Slowly they let go of her as they faced me. The doctor pursed her lips as she breathed, "I'm sorry."

Tears broke out again, but this time heavily as I fell onto the ground. "I was late again, wasn't I?"