The Enemy in my head

Chapter 18

Trigger warning that is unusual tea:

Characters death, talk about cutting open brains and heads, depressed Patton, criticall Roman, confused Logan, being shot, depressing thoughts, a cliffhanger, angsty af like why am I like this send help

And of course, the usual warning:

Swearing, Crying, Yelling, Remus being Remus, Angst, my gay ass making Roman gay as duck (quak)

I also wanna say, that I will write down Intrusive Thoughts. I only have compulsive thoughts, so I do not know how to do that. Therefore don't come for me, if I should do it wrong. Mentall Illness is a hart topic, not understood by everybody, who is not involved. I would have done research, but that would have been to triggering for my stupid-ass head. Again, Intrusive Thoughts are hart to deal with, don't forget that. Thank you for understanding. :)

Now, a sumory will be waiting by the end of the chapter, hosted from Remy AND Emile, for emotional support (⊙_⊙;)

Let's go! (¬‿¬)

Outside of Anxietys Head

Remus POV (what a twisted turn of events):

Fear maked humans weak.

We are no humans.

We are sides of a human. Therefore, chances of us getting hurt, weak or whatsoever, are devided. In conclusion, I can't feel the same amount o pain, as an actuall human - at least I thought that.

Now, seeing my lover, boyfriend, and little support snake - yes, that is a title - in the head of my past-friend-now-kinda-enemy, I feel more pain, giref and fear, thn a human could.

Virgil - no, AnXiEtY - Anxiety, he is a shaking mess. He has been starring into space, growling, whenever Morality tried to reach out to him. Which makes me wonder - what the HELL is my boyfriend doing in there? Is he frying up Anxietys' brain, or something? I imagined what a burning human brain would look like. Do our brains look like human brains? Are our brains devided? Is ours smaller than a human brain? Do some sides get a bigger brain? I wanna look at a brain? How do you cut open a head?

I shook my head, and tapped my finger on my knee. Up and down, in a three times rythm, only to start again at 4. Then at 8. 16. 24. 32. 40...

I only realized Janus was back, when he himself supported himself with his hand on my shoulder. Or maybe he was trying to calm my head. I never asked.

How did he get out of Anxietys head? Did he cut it open?

It scares me how easily your mind can take over your life

Romans POV (what a surprise, again):

Dear God, if Virgil dies in there, I will die, too. Why am I like this?

It is scary, that our brains are so dangerous, that we could die because of it. My creativity in poery right now is more curse then blessing.

Luckily, Janus made it out there alive, at least. My brother woudl go mad without him (A/N *chuckles evilly*). Even though I have nothing left for the snake (besides hate for his name), I gave him a second. He looked tiered, and, even though he was trying to hide it, he was hurt. After he and Remus hugged, I comfronted him, trying to stay calm (even though, my crush was still in that creepy, story head of his). "What did you see, Janus?".

He took a deep breath. "As feared,", he starts shaking his head in utter shock. "As we have feared, his barriers are indeed broken. Paranoia is waiting. And he is so calm, if he could, he would have a book and a cup of tea, having a tea party. Which means, he is ready to fight Virgil and he is sure, that he will win.

Pattons POV ("Author, why are you changing POVs" you ask? "Just to make you hear from them all, before one of them d!ies in the chapter", would be a fitting awnser):

I used to think, the most fragile part of Thomas would be me. Me, the heart. The feelings.

I used to think, since I am the first side finding his way to Thomas when he was born, I would be used the most, and therefore be weakened over the years. I would wake up, not with the happy mind, everybody thinks I have. I would wake up, with one thought, and one thought only.

If somebody needs to be sacrificed, it will be me.
It was not me today.

Logans POV (nearly everybody by now- who will die??):

I swear, I should have died instead.

Why did Janus have to go into Virgils Head? Who is this Paranoia? And what will he do, when he wins?

What are they not telling us?

Janus POV :

As I suported my body on Remus shoulder, the truth seettled in:

I am glad, I was the one dieing.

Not Remus. Not Virgil. Not an IMPORTANT side. But it hit me.

Thank god.

You see, I am the fragile one. Patton, he was not. He was in charche of feelings - and feelings are powerfull. But me, I am Lies. I am Deceit. The option you choose, when you choose to be weak.

I am the weakest side.

I was the weakest side.

As I suported my body on Remus shoulder, that truth seettled in. As I slided down to my knees, buckling over, as if I was punched.

But I was shot.

Sumory (sorry for ANOTHER Cliffhanger.)

Emil: Hey, Guys. First off, do not worry, the author will save us!

Remy: We hope so at last-

Emil shot Remy a look, and they restarted.

Remy: So the sumory-

Emil: It is okay if you could not read the chapter. It was angsty. THe author themselves shivered while writing.

Remy: That is correct. So, I was saying - The Sumory.

The last chapter ended with janus starting a fight withh paranoia - here also known as 💫P💫 - and got seriously hurt. While the fight, Remus got very - Emil, how can I say that to the kids without triggering them?

Emil : Tell them, he got twitchy.

Remy: He got twitchy. He had bad thoughts, to put it simple. The POVs. changed,and we found out that all the sides doupt themselves, without even realizing it. While everybody was twitchy, Janus had returned with the wound - only for the cliffhanger to end their suffering and start our cursing at this dann author.

Emil & Remy: Take a cookie, while you wait for an update!

A/N The next chapter will be just as intense and long - but than the triggers will go down again, dont worry!

1130 words (omg yes! I am proud for going out of the house and doing something - do not judge me)