The Enemy in my head

Chapter 30

Trigger Warnings: Gaslighting yourself, suicide mentioning, the word "suicidal!," self hatred, self harm references, bad coping mechanics, fear, paranoia, cursing, yeling, passing out, death mentioning.

I swear, we are all triggering ourselves with fanfiction by now.

Sumory at the end of the chapter ^^.

Anxietys POV:
I couldn't tell Roman that I heared him. I didn't want to get false hope.

Not now, nor ever in the future.

In the back of my head, I heared him starting to talk in a voice, I did everything but like.

"Why would he love you? You are a hopeless case, you know. Nothing but a Mistake."

I shook my head. I was already destined to die, I won't get suicidal.

"Virgil?"

I thought it was Roman but it was Remus instead.

"Ya good?"

"Of course.", I responded, trying not to show my dissapointment.

"Totally believable.", he said, and I frowned at him. "That's what he always said.", I remarked. "How are you coping?", I asked, changing the topic from my fathers death.

"With alcohol. You? Must be draining to have him in your head.", he looked genuinly interested.

I held my wrists close. "You do not want to know."

"We should stop here. We are finally away from the Dark Mind Palace and out of danger. We ddo not know what is lurking there.", Logan yelled to us. I gave him a silent thanks, as we all sat down, the topic forgotten.

"We are finally away from the Dark Mind Palace and out of danger. We do not know what is lurking there. So, Virgil? Roman? How does your plan continue?", Logan asked.

I looked at Roman. He didn't look back, but instead starred straight away, and started explaining.

"Well, now that we gathered all the help we can get, we should head to the main control room."

"But the way there will take hours!", Patton whined, rupping his feet. "Why do we not just teleport?"

"We would - but Virgil found himself unable to do so.", Roman said, looking down.

"Why is that?", Logan asked.

"I am carrying to mutch weight with my wings and... well, a second person. It hurts when I do it, in my head and back. Its like my body is rebelling against it."

"Why don't you fly there?"

"That's what I said but Roman-"

"I said that we can't let the very unstable person all this is about, rise alone. We do not know what can happen. What if he gets a panic attack or Paranoia does something to him? We would not be able to help.", Roman exclaimed.

Virgils POV:

He wouldn't talk like that if he would not be here.

"But I am here.",  heared from the back in my head.

Not for much longer.

"And what makes you so sure of that?", he snarled.

I had no awnser.

I felt a sting on my cheek and looked up slowly. My head felt weird.

It felt, as if there was more weight on it than usually.

Like something was tearing on my eyelids to just close them and rest forever.

"Hey, Virge? Whats wrong?"

My sight blurred and I couldn't even see who it was.

I recognised him by his hand on my wrist.

Roman. He is checking my Pulse.

"Logan!"

"Oh fuck."

"Language!"

"He is gonna pass out!"

And so I did, hoping that this was all over when I just vanished.

Maybe he did get me a little suicidal.

Sumory:

Remy: I am back babes! So, long story short, Roman and Virgil didn't talk about what Roman had said, and they all, with Remus, went away from the dark mind palace. Roman explained that they needed to walk to the main control room, given that Virgil can't seem to teleport anymore, being to weak.

The chapter ended with Paranoia gaslighting Virgil into giving into his weakness, and passing out.

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