Chapter 1

320 9 3
                                        

My breath left my lungs. Now or never.

„Virge..? You okay there, buddy? " he lookes worried.
Say it. Say it. Say it -

„Huh? Oh... Yeah it's just.. I am a little disappointed in myself. I thought.. I thought I could handle them. "
I have started now so I can't turn back. I have waited to long for this
The stress is of hiding it is too much.
He talked to me while my anxiety took away my ability to control my own breathing.
I could hardly understand what he was saying and tried to focus on my breathing getting better.
In for 4.
Hold for 8.
Out for 7.
„..kind of unfair, why should you be on a better standard then any other of the sides? " he looked puzzled and confused.
I took myself together and said the sentence that haunted me got the last night's in my dreams.
„Because I was one of them."
As he didn't respond, but backed away slightly, I cracked a smile and got down to my room again,  becoming a huge headache, that shouldhave been my first red flag.

187 words

The Enemy in my headWhere stories live. Discover now