This story is under rewriting, I swear it gets better.
Virgil had hidden his other side for so long - until eventually he tells Thomas about his past.
"It was always going to end like this! You and me on the same side, fighting for the throne!"
"Wh...
TRIGGER WARNINGS (a lot) : Depression Self hate Screaming/yelling Cursing Sad self talk Remus perfectionism And most importantly A lot of love from me for everyone realaring to one of these triggers <3 Your beautifull
JANUS POV
As we helped Virgil up and he drank some water i noticed something horrifieng. He didnt even care that he was in the middle of an cycle of peopel he left for good reasons, he actually smiled at a few. Which means he feels. good here, wich means that he does think that he belongs here, whuch means he feels like a dark sides, which is leeding to the conglusion that- I felt how Merry held my shoulder. She was the imbodiment of bad thinking. (Here is how i see her )
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The reason why she looks so undark like the rest of us are boys and she is a girl, is because she was torn apart from thomas such a long while ago, she is basically only a thought living by her self now. She is just here cause she wants to. Perfectionsm joined the group. He had dark rings under his eyes, was pale and had open scrupped hands.. He also looked around insanly, counting down the people, looking for if anyone was missing, while trying to stand as straight as he could and change his expressions a lot. Happy. Sad. Angry. Depressed. Tiered. As he settled finally on calm and still a little bit interested, he realaxed. Not like Merry, he didn't get separated from thomas which makes him hold all of his perfectionism on him self, since the perfect side doesn't bother to annoy Thomas in any way. Which makes him go crazy.
Merry held my shoulder thighter. "Hey... " "Hey Janus do you wanna lay down for a sec? " "Yeah you look like Mr. Incredible in Incredibles two. Or Hamilton in Nonstop. Or Dipper pines when he couldn't find out the password of the computer-" Obsession started go from speaking to rambling, before Control stopped him. "One. Word. " He said Stern and slow making finger movements and straighting his back a little bit more then it already was. Control was the brother of Logan until Control and Perfectionism got into a realationship and nearly brought Thomas into OCD... I remember Anxiety taking all of it before he passed out in exhaustion infront of us, obviously in need of a brake. "Janus.. " "Im fine." "No your not. And Anxiety isn't either, but he will be. " control said. Even though he is a dark side, he has a really smoothing voice, when he wants. "Guys, where is Anx'? " Wherewherewherewherewherewherewherewherewherewherewhere- "JANUS SIT THE FUCK DOWN! " Heck, where is he? "Janus..? " "Hey babes ya good" "He- he is.. " Darkness.
ANXIETYS HEAD POV
YOU NEED ME NO I DONT! YES NO HECK, YOUR SO SUBBORN! I AGREE DID YOU FORGET ABOUT JANUS? He is a smart man, he will be fine! HE IS OBVIOUSLY SLEEP DEPRIEVED, AND WEACK - SHUT UP WOULD YA
"Hey, im still here you know. " "How could i forget you.. " "i see i have reached you? " the bastard smirked. "You were in my head all my live, depression, you reached me, before i reached myself. " "Heck, your so weird and depressed. Why do you think Janus is so pale? " "... " "Because you-" "BECAUSE OF ME. i am the bother, an annoying bother to be exact. I know. So what? How about we turn this around? Who are you Depression? And what makes you think that you can just simply judge over me, just because you were accepted into society? I know what will keep you away from me. They. My friends and family. They helped me so much in the past years and experience with you! They deserve to be alright! And I will fight. For them. And for me. Because no one deserves to disappear.. "
Not me. Not you. No one. Not a single soul, not a single human, not God who knows what should ever have the feeling of being not good enough to live.
More positive Thoughts rushed into my brain with such an posetive feeling in my head, that Depression litarally hissed. I laughed. "You sound like a cat. " He smirked. "Just because you have won against me, doesn't mean you will win against him. The battle is not other, it barely has begon. So please, you have the floor sir. But you should never ever forget. You are not worth the title Virgil. He will win, I asure you. You know it. " "Look your talk has been great and stuff but I prefer you to die soooo" "Wonder who you learned the whish of death from. ", he snarled back. "Not really one of your best peptalks man, how about you stay here a lil longer and think of a better one? While I will just go alright?" He looked me in the eye like I lost my mind. "Your sarcastic comments won't save you from him, neither from me." With those words the door opened and Obsession guided me out of the hell hole. "Where is Janus..? " I asked slowly. Just because i acted it off, doenst mean, Depressions words didn't hit me like a fucking truck. Cuz they defiantly did. "He passed out. ", Obsession said, far to calmly. "WHuT? hOw?" If only I would have finally lost, Janus could finally rest. I could litarally feel Depression smirking sheeplesly like he knew, he would affect me in the end. Which he kinda did, but nobody needs to know that. "Well, you see, he needed rest. " While Obsession guided me through the floors to who knows where, he also explained how worried he is. About me as Janus. He took me into another room, opened the door and i meet no one else there then the embodiment of Logic, Morality. and Creativity all sitting on chairs in a circle around a table. If the situation wasn't already weird they all looked straight into my eyes. Whichh was weird since they couldn't even talk to me, since the one magical day. "G-guys, what erm what are you guys doing here? Not that I mind, it's just a surprise.. WAIT, - " Patton flinched back for a second.. "It's dangerous here! All kinds of.harmfull things litarally LIVE here. Why are you here? We're you forced? Did you come because you wanted to? Are you hurt?-" Logan caughed and made me stop immediatly. "We were kindly ask to help, qnd since we all only want the best for you, " he made gestures around the circle of the bunch of lights ides, "we of course cam3. For the record, we aren't hurt in any way." I sighed, satisfied with the awnser. Halfly. "Why did you bring them here?", I asked obsession. He smiled sadly. Its unusual for Obsession to be sad. That's why I always liked him, he always had books, movies, comics and other merch of every Fandom, band, series, movie, ship and even had all of them sorted by colour and Themes they were about. Everytime I needed something to calm my nerves with, I went to his room and sorted his stuff by colour, Genre or sieze. So when Obsession was sadly looking at me, I had a heart attack.
