What Have I done? -Lucathy

2-I'll be 'fine'

  "Ugh....."

  'seems like I passed out on the floor crying huh?'

  'My head hurts and my eyes are probably swollen'

  I got up to a siting position with my hands supporting me.

  'Should I even go to school?'

  'kiel and Jennette would probably freak out about my puffy eyes'

  I stood up and after wondering or awhile I figured I should probably go to school if I don't want my door to be knocked down and broken by Jennette.

  'Maybe if I take a shower I'll feel a little bit better... I'm already late anyways no problem with being later...'

~Time skip (in school)~

  "Miss Athanasia. Mind explaining why your so lat-" the teacher turned to look at me who's eyes were super puffy, the moment she noticed it she shut up and told me to go to my seat.

  I could hear people gossiping around the room as I walked to my seat which was beside Lucas...

  But he wasn't there...

  'I guess I kinda wished you were here so I apologize and figure out what happened... Well your not even going to listen even if you were here...' I smiled to myself as I felt tears threatening to come out...

  'Even if you wouldn't listen having your company is better then no company... you know?'

  I took out my textbook and my note book to try and listen to class but I couldn't...

  I unconsciously started doodling Lucas all over my notebook. His name... His face.... Everything I could think of that was about him...

  'Ah... This feeling... It's back again... My heart is breaking again...'

  I felt my self starting to lose my composure...

  I raised my hand and excused myself to the toilet

  'I wanted to act like everything was fine! But I can't! I can't!'

  I ran to the toilet

  I was starting to lose it....

  I hated it when people saw me like this...

  So weak.... And pathetic....

  I opened the toilet door and saw that some people were inside. I knew I was already crying, so I kept my head low and locked myself inside one of the cubicals.

  I started just crying and crying....

I could hear people banging on the door asking if I was ok but...

  I wasn't....

  I didn't want to hear anyone....

  I didn't want anyone's help other then his...

  I just wanted to be alone...

~Time skip(After school)~

  I stayed in the toilet for the entire half the day I didn't want to go out...

  The girls outside eventually left I assume to go find 'help'...

  I don't need help....

  I don't want help....

  After I heard the last school bell I unlocked the door and got out of the toilet.

  It's not that I have calmed down....