What Have I done? -Lucathy

6 - Friends?

'Hmm? Why's it completely dark....'

'I don't remember offing all the lights...'

'Only Lucas would off all the lights.'

'But he's not here.... Right!?!'

I opened my eyes an started looking around.

"Hey are you awake?"

'This voice... No it can't be....'

"Lucas....?"

"Yes?"

"Why the hell are you in my dorm!?!"

I sat up and looked at the faint outline of a person who I assume is Lucas.

"You didn't come to lessons yesterday and you were not in your dorm, You disappeared..."

'Oh... So that what me waking up late going to school then going to the playground seemed like... Is it my imagination or is Lucas sad?'

"So I went to look for you along with kiel and Jennette."

"Why would you even want to look for me?"

'Don't you hate me?'

"I don't know...."

"You don't know?"

'That must be the most unsatisfying answer I have ever heard.'

"I did it on impulse, so I have no idea why I did it."

"Hey Lucas.....?"

Lucas hummed in reply

"Do you....."

'Just say it there's nothing wrong with asking..... Right....?'

"Still like me?"

I could not see his expression but I didn't have too it was obvious he was shocked.

"Well.... I guess...."

'He still likes me!!!'

I was over the moon at his confession, I felt like I could fly!

"But... I'm still uncomfortable with the fact that you cheated on me...."

'Ah.... I should've guessed.... You still won't get back together with me....'

"So are you going to leave me alone now?" I asked somehow I still had the energy to cry....

I waited for a reply but he just kept silent....

"Lucas.....?"

"Athanasia... I'm not suggesting we get back together....."

'Lucas.... Stop calling me by my name...'

"I know..." I managed to choke out a few words while my tears continued to fall.

"But I want to stop this silent treatment....."

'Eh....?!'

"Athanasia I'm asking if we can be friends again.... Just friends...."

'He put so much emphasis on that word... But if we are friends maybe I'll be 'fine'... Right?'

'If I am he's friend I could support his new relationship on the side lines... Right...?'

'I could help him if I was his friend right.....?'

'If I'm his friend I may have to deal with him moving on... Would I be fine with that....?'

'But at least I'll get to be with him....'