Black Heart (Akame ga Kill! x Male Reader)

Chapter 23: The Rakshasa Demon Slayer

Imperial Capital

Later that same evening, (Y/N) sat in the darkness of his home, wallowing in the guilt that had been consuming him since discovering Bols had deceased.

This reminded him of when he killed Sheele. On that day as well, he felt regret, sorrow, and guilt. But the circumstances were a bit different.

Sheele was a stranger to (Y/N) and as far as she knew, an enemy and the biggest obstacle in theirs and the Revolutionary Army's way.

Bols and (Y/N) had known each other personally and while he wasn't as close to Bols as he is with Wave and Esdeath, it still pulled his heartstrings to see Bols dead.

(Y/N): <Damn it!>

It was here that (Y/N) began to blame himself.

(Y/N): <None of this would've ever happened if I didn't come to the Empire in the first place! I wouldn't have been forced to kill more people than I already have! I could be living a normal life right now! ... But I guess that doesn't matter now though, does it? I have to move forward. I have to make a change. Not just for me, but ->

???: "What are you doing sitting in the dark?"

(Y/N) didn't bother to turn around and react to this surprise entrance. He was all but used to them at this point.

(Y/N): ... *Sigh* "I'm not."

???: "There are no lights on. And you're just sitting. Seems as if you're sitting in the dark to me."

(Y/N): "... I'm thinking."

???: "About?"

(Y/N): "Stuff."

???: "Well..."

A gentle touch to the shoulders was enough to get (Y/N) to turn around. There he saw Esdeath in her normal attire minus the hat.

Esdeath: "You could be thinking about me instead of whatever else is on your mind..."

She said as she sat next to him, staring deep into his eyes with her icy blue ones.

(Y/N): ...

He quickly averted her gaze and looked in the opposite direction.

Esdeath: "(Y/N)."

(Y/N): "What."

Esdeath: "Tell me what's wrong."

(Y/N): "There is nothing wrong."

Esdeath: "I can easily tell when there's something wrong with you. So tell me."

(Y/N): "Trust me Esdese, I'm fine. You don't have to worry."

Esdeath: "... Is it about Bols?"

(Y/N): ...

Esdeath: "(Y/N)."

(Y/N): "I told you what would happen. They were all going to die. First the doctor, now Bols. Kurome's already half-dead from what I've been told so who knows when her time will be up."

Esdeath: "You can't-"

(Y/N): "You knew what was going to happen! You know what happens when people work with me! Sooner or later, they eventually die."

He paused, took a deep breath, and continued.

(Y/N): "I could've saved him. I had a bad feeling in my stomach before we took out those bandits and I waited. I waited too long. And by hesitating to act on the bad feeling I had, it cost him his life. If only I was there a little sooner..."