When i was a kid, i was kinda toxic.
If someone didn't sit by me, i'd cry, and make people feel bad. Not on purpose, but i DO have abandonment issues, so I'm not surprised.
But now i wanna cry more than ever in all honesty.
Im only writing this because i know the people i'm talking about don't read this.
Their families are doing ok money wise, so they can go to a camp together, that i can't go to, because i don't have the money.
This is the second year they're going, and i wouldn't hurt as much if they didn't talk about it all the fucking time.
One is one of my best friends and the other is my girlfriend.
I don't wanna go back to my toxic ways where i bring everybody down because i don't have something.
There are a lot of things i don't have.
A house, a dad, etc.
But thats fine.
But it still hurts.
It may not be toxic. It may just be my insecurities coming out. But still. I hate that part of me that just wants to break down and scream about how left out and alone i feel.
But i KNOW I'm crazy. I KNOW its stupid, but i can't help it.
What do i do..?
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Gender fluid Diaries
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