Im done!
Im done trying!
Im done doing fucking ANYTHING!
Any time my mom does fucking ANYTHING, she wins a bit: looses 20 lbs, sings a perfect note, doesn't drink for a month,
Anything.
She ALWAYS backs out. She thinks "oh, I've made it this far and I've done good so i'm allowed to stretch the rules-"
N O
That is NOT how that works. A week later, and she's a fucking balloon again or some shit, or cant sing a note for the life of her.
And this habit of hers has caused to grow up believing no matter how hard il try, il always fuck up and BAM! Its gone. All that work.
Thats why, whenever i have to delete something i worked hard on, i have a mental break down. Its rare for me to actually finish something, so when i do, and its suddenly gone, no matter the reason, i break.
Only now as a 13 year old am i really realizing the shitty parts of my childhood.
But thats part of why i really want to get into psychology.
But how long will it be till THAT backfires?
I give it 5 months tops.
Kill me.
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Gender fluid Diaries
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