Gender fluid Diaries

Its been a long time.

Tw: family death, chaos, etc.

A lot has happened since i last updated this.

For one my mother wen't to a mental hospital for a while.
It was a tough time for everyone. She was gone about a week and a half.

Then the second day she was in, my grandpa died.
He helped raise me. He was more my dad than my actual dad is, and my dad's a pretty dope guy (even if i've only known him about a year now).
I miss him a lot.

When i introduced him to my girlfriend at the time a few years ago, he was ecstatic.
When i was little the dog chewed my harmonica that i liked to constantly breathe into, so he took me to the music store that same morning to get a new one.
He was patient with me despite his anger issues that were 100% caused by my grandma.
He's the reason i want to be a biologist. We watched documentaries together all the time.
He was an archeologist, and then a teacher.

All of us know he only stuck with my grandma's insanity because he wouldn't have gotten custody of his daughters back then, and then when my mom was 19 she got pregnant with me.
He stayed for them until they grew, and then for me.

On a similar note, my grandmother is toxic and insane. We've been dealing with her shit.
As soon as my mom was out of the hospital she started dumping her emotions onto her and we didn't see her at Christmas cause my mom had a panic attack about being trapped in her apartment with her.

My relationship with my dad and half siblings is great at least, i adore them all including my step mom, her energy is amazing. She's like the most down to earth woman and my dad's REALLY lucky to have her.

Lastly, I'm 17 now. And it's 2024 now. Woo.
I had a Heathers the Musical themed birthday party (if you know you know) and it was pretty cool. I missed all my friends.

Thank you for reading.
Sorry i haven't kept up with this lol.