Ok so im kinda freaking out internally.
Things with my mom and her bf are going pretty damn good.
When he fucks up, he recognizes it and changes his behavior, actually learning from the experience, unlike all her past partners.
I actually have hope for their relationship.
But its also terrifying, cause if he breaks her heart, he'll break mine too.
Plus i have to deal with the aftermath, and the struggle of picking my mom and i back up off the floor.
And now its getting dangerous, because I've been thinking, and i actually do like him, and i feel like i would be ok with eventually calling him dad.
And thats horrifying, because the last time i called someone dad with 100% seriousness i was maybe 4, and we lived with him. And that ended, leaving us homeless.
Im terrified.
On another note, he has a house with 3 bedrooms, because he really wants a family. If we moved in, which he have talked about, i would get the second floor all to my self cause its one big room.
And, in a house, my mom could give me what I've always hoped for. A sibling. She wants his baby.
Ive spent almost 10 years in this small, breaking, fragile apartment, and i think im willing to take the risk.
But im really, REALLY scared...
What if it all goes wrong...?
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