Gender fluid Diaries

Results

We got the test results back.

Once again it was all this anxiety over absolutely nothing.

The test came back negative.

Its still a mystery.

I remember when I was younger I used to not care as much, but in this moment I've confirmed that it does hurt, and I hate not knowing who he is.

I'll never have a dad to talk to about girls, or a dad to come out to, and go to fun places with.

It seems odd posting this on the internet for all to see, but this is the first thing I thought of doing.

I know there are so many people out there going through this same thing, female, male, or nonbinary alike. I know im not alone in this, especially with my mom, but I feel like I am.

I feel alone, but that type of alone where you actually have people.

Its like everyone is right there for me, and I can't even reach out to them. I can't talk to them. Even in writing this im alone. You may be reading it, but im alone in writing it. Im alone in writing my life story, despite so many people there to help, and some people there to listen.

Sorry, now this is just getting depressing.

Because no one usually comments, please comment on this one and tell me how you're doing. Im genuinely curious. Did you eat yet today? Is it night where you live? How are you. Anonymously, what is something that has been bothering you?

Its time for me to move on from this, so i'll see you guys later.

Goodbye. <3