Gender fluid Diaries

We found my dad.

TW: heavy mentions of lack of father, and brief mention of gun violence and SA. This ones heavy my guys.
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We did it.
After almost 16 years, with 23 and me, we found my dad.

And he isn't in jail, or dead, or a druggie, he's a nerd and a cool person.
He's married with two kids and his wife is ok with me so far.
My mom doesn't know what to do.
My moms boyfriend is having a rough time.
And i don't know how to feel.

My entire life i've assumed i would never find my biological father, especially since even my mom didn't remember him, but we did.

He's an identical twin. He and his wife are extremely progressive. And tomorrow im gonna video chat with them on Discord and probably meet my half-siblings.

He's a feminist. He love D&D. And my mom and him had CONSENSUAL sex (if you could call it sex, apparently they barely did anything, he was early if yk what i mean) so its also a mystery as to how tf i was conceived.

About a year ago i couldn't sleep because the thought had crossed my mind of "what if i find him and he doesn't want me?"
It destroyed me that night.
Not to mention having to feel your whole life like you were not on a bastard, but the product of SA. It was horrible.

Everything in my life feels like a movie, and usually in a bad way.

I witness a sh**ting,
I endured sever bullying,
My moms past boyfriends were comically toxic, etc.

But this...?
Its going like in the movies.
But in a good way.
And i don't know what to do.

My life is changing forever.

And of course this happens the one year that my longest bestie is out of the country.

On the last day of this year, i'll be 16.
And it'll be the first birthday i have where i know who my father is, and he can wish me a happy birthday.

Happy birthday to me.