Private chat {gee.x, xofrnkie}
gee.x: hey
gee.x: I know we haven't exactly been talking recently but I thought I would ask anyway
gee.x: during the summer, me, ray, m, ry, ty, josh, bren, dal, pete, trick, joe, andy, ry's friend spencer and his bf jon are going to the uk to visit rue and susa
gee.x: if you want to come, you are more than welcome to
xofrnkie: but wouldn't it be weird?
xofrnkie: like between you and me
xofrnkie: it's already kind of awkward at band practice
gee.x: yeah...
gee.x: there's something I need to say to you but I'm going to need a minute to tell him first
gee.x: it's only fair to him
xofrnkie: ok
xofrnkie: go do what you need to do, I'm going to finish washing the dishes for my ma
gee.x: thank you. I'll be right back
private chat {gee.x, toro19}
gee.x: ray, we need to talk
toro19: about what?
gee.x: about us
gee.x: I need to be really honest with you about some things
gee.x: things that are going to hurt us and probably you
toro19: right
gee.x: I really like you ray
gee.x: we've been through some tough shit together and I don't think anyone else could have had my back the way you have, so thank you
gee.x: the problem is, I like frank too
gee.x: and I've tried so hard to tell myself not to like him because he's too young and I have you and you're perfect
gee.x: you're everything I could ever want or need
gee.x: but I can't keep lying to myself and I can't keep lying to you
gee.x: it doesn't matter how much I like you, I think I'll always want to have him too
toro19: are you breaking up with me?
gee.x: god no. I don't think it will ever matter how much I like him either, I can't see me without you
toro19: then we're still good
toro19: sure, I feel like I'm letting you down because I can't seem to be everything you want
toro19: but all I really want is for you to be happy and if for that you need frank too then you need frank too and who am I to stand in the way of that
toro19: and I don't want you to be with him behind my back so, if he understands you're still mine too and you promise you'll be transparent with me about what's going on between you and him, you can be with him too
gee.x: why do you have to be so perfect when I'm such a screw up
toro19: I'm not perfect, case and point, you need frank too to be complete
gee.x: I'll talk to him
gee.x: I really like you ray
gee.x: so much
toro19: I really like you too gee
private chat {gee.x, xofrnkie}
gee.x: I spoke to him
gee.x: you done with the dishes?
xofrnkie: just finished
gee.x: so the person I needed to talk to was ray
xofrnkie: I guessed that
gee.x: I told him that it doesn't matter how much I like him, I think I'm always going to want you too
xofrnkie: wait, what?
gee.x: I like you frankie
gee.x: god knows I shouldn't but I do
gee.x: but I still like ray too
xofrnkie: what did ray say
gee.x: that if I need to have you too to be complete then I should get to have you too
gee.x: he said that as long as you understood that I'm still his too, and I tell him what happens between us so that none of it happens behind his back, then I can be with you too
gee.x: if you want that, of course
xofrnkie: I need a bit of time to think
gee.x: that's cool
gee.x: and the offer to come with us to england still stands
xofrnkie: I'll have a think about that too
