Maybe I've been ignoring a lot of thoughts and emotions I don't want to face that I forgot how to hold and confront it properly, that I feel so awkward like it's not a part of me, like it's just a tenant in my head and I'm waiting for it to go away, or just hide because I don't pay attention to it. But it always comes out of hiding, always coming back, and I will always find myself relearning about it and then deciding to ignore them again for the same reason that I just don't know what to do with it.