Sanctuary [Poetry]

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"I wanted to see you smile so I could kill you.

But your eyes are dead despite being alive.

That curve pale painted on your lips looked unreal.

Ah, I can't kill you with such boring face."

"I got scared at first when you chased me.

But realization poured upon my soul.

I wasn't supposed to live, I remembered.

I asked you to kill me, but you asked for something else.

I have to let you out of this hell, and then kill me afterwards.

You swore to God."

"God is not in this world."

"But you swore to God."

"What if some people made the same wish as you?

Who will God choose to promise with?

What if yours rendered not granted?"

"If God wasn't here, what am I now?

Maybe you are my God."

"No, I'm a monster, far from holiness.

I kill happy people because they give birth to monsters like me."

"If there's no God, then I shall make you one.

I'll sew you perfectly until you become mine.

Until you become my very own God.

But I'll kill you first."

"I can't be your God despite what you wanted to do.

Why are you like this?

Such stupid face, such stupid words, a bullshit of everything."

"You said you never lie."

"I hate lies."

"Then you will kill me?"

"The moment I see your real smile."

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18September2019
Inspired from a good watch.