Ride Or Die (Deku x Fem Reader)

Chapter 6: Distance

"Midoriya? Are you okay?"

"I-I'm so sorry." Izuku chokes out before bursting into tears.

It all seemed easier in my head, but now that I have to say it out loud it feels crushing.

Izuku thinks to himself as he attempts to calm down. He takes in deep breaths but none of that oxygen seems to reach his lungs. At the sound of Izuku's despair, Y/n's heart drops and she starts to chew on the inside of her lip.

"Hey~ tell me what's up, bud. I'm here to listen okay? Let it all out." Y/n says in a soothing voice.

Her leg starts to bounce as she closely listens to his breathing to indicate whether he's okay or not.

"And you can call me Y/n. I trust you enough." she adds in.

"I tried so hard today and I feel like I'm letting you down. I feel like I'm wasting your time Y/n, I'm sorry!" his voice wavers and shakes as he struggles to hold back more sobs.

"Noooo. Don't say that. You're not wasting my time because you are still here. It's okay to feel down and depressed every now and then. It's natural, Midoriya. The fact that you tried all day to not feel like this proves that you are strong. Recognize that. I'm proud of you for hanging on." Y/n says while pacing her room, anxiously.

She prays that her words can keep him here long enough for him to get better. She knew he wasn't going to become completely recovered in just a week. She's actually impressed that it took him 3 days to have another meltdown. She's even more impressed that he called her like she told him to.

Izuku weeps some more over the phone, battling two sides in his head. On one hand, he believes everything she says and feels better about calling her. On the other hand, he feels like he isn't telling her enough about his feelings. He wants her to react like he thought she would. He wants her to be angry at him and cut him off so he can finally be let go, but he also feels so relieved that she understands him and is coaching him through this.

"Midoriya? You're painfully quiet over there." Y/n stops pacing and widens her eyes as she holds the phone closer to her ear.

Izuku takes in a deep breath and thinks about what he should say.

"D-do you really think I'm worth all of this? I feel like you're my friend to clear your conscience or something. I just don't think this is real. And I don't mean that in a rude way, I like having you as my friend, but I don't want to be lied to, and I also hate lying to others so I felt like I had to say this." he finally says, making his voice a little more stable.

"Midoriya...I'm not your friend to clear my conscience, that's so stupid. I'm your friend because I'm new, you're nice, and I get special vibes from you. You're not some basic teen that I can find anywhere. You're Izuku Midoriya. I don't know much about you this soon, but I do know that you are resilient, kind hearted, passionate, intelligent, and selfless. And I am making it my mission to pull you through this. I had to crawl out alone, but I won't let you do the same." Y/n finally finishes her speech and holds her breath to hear his next response.

Izuku breaks down again and his broken sobs are heard through the phone. Y/n holds her chest as she listens to her friend's sorrow. She feels so distressed to know the vanquish he must feel.

Although his tears in the beginning were over self pity and depression, his tears now are from an overwhelming happiness. This is the first person in his life to believe in him, even his mother doubts him. However, this girl came to him wanting a genuine friendship and became his own personal cheerleader within a week.

"Midoriya are you okay?" Y/n asks while starting to bite a nail.

*sniff* "Yeah... I'm sorry I doubted you. I think I'm okay now. I hope I didn't ruin your night, bestie." he chuckles at the last part and Y/n smiles to herself.