Aera, Official Princess of YG. Maknae of Blackpink. Follow her through love and hate and make up your own opinion of her.
Suzy will be the face of Aera.
When my alarm goes off I open one eye but groan when the sunlight actually registers.
I was annoyed all last night with my phone going off with texts and calls from family and friends...I mean I appreciated the birthday wishes but just not when I was trying to fall asleep.
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Sitting up, I try to fix my hair and wipe the drool off my face (because I'm such a catch😉)...
Looking around my room there were still boxes all over the place along with suitcases. Looking at the floor there was still chocolate frosting and cake splattered all over that now had confetti stuck in it.
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Don't judge me for leaving my room a mess last night...or early this morning?
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I was way too tired and IT WASN'T MY MESS TO CLEAN UP!
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Okay the boxes and suitcases sure, but my Unnies made the other mess. I kinda just took a towel and wiped everything off of me before I crawled into bed and passed out.
When my second alarm goes off (because I have a total of 5) I go to turn it off while I begin scrolling through all of my notifications.
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I wasn't sure if anyone else does this...but I have a thing for checking who was the first person to send me a birthday text...I don't know...it makes me feel special and give extra love to that person...they showed they cared yk?
Scrolling all the way to the bottom of my notifications...I guess I should have known better...
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Or maybe I just have a thing for jinxing things?
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With the pounding of my heart, I try to relax my thoughts and breathing...
And I'm not going to lie to myself... My mind was going crazy with ideas of him finally apologizing and wanting me back...
Pathetic...I know...but I can't help it.
Opening the first message I received on my birthday, I take one last deep breath.
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That's it?
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Feeling disappointed, I do my best to keep my tears in while I throw my head back and drop my phone.
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I really did try to distance myself from anything Jaehyun related so I could avoid the hurt I still felt.
Yes, you can feel hurt by someone but still miss them like crazy... and that's wild to me.
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These past couple of months, I've dived into work and redirected my thoughts every time they wandered to him. And as messed up as it is...I've avoided the Dreamies at all costs.
