She's Not Okay

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"Ni Hao" I smile at Lay nervously while he was busy getting his makeup done 

"Ni hao" He answers back while I take my seat at the chair next to him "Hěn gāoxìng zhōngyú jiàn dào nǐ" (It's nice to finally meet you) He says while my cheeks go a bit red

"Nǐ yěshì" (You too) I answer a bit shyly

The makeup artist approaches me while I try to relax in the chair and my manager takes his seat behind me. I arrived in China earlier this morning and now I'm here for a photoshoot between the judges and mentors.

Later is when I have dance practice with all of the backup dancers. And...I'm not sure if Minghao will be there...earlier this morning it was a bit of a hassle since we were getting on the same flight and didn't want to be photographed together...despite people knowing we will work together...Yeah, I know...It doesn't make much sense

When the hairstylists come over to do my hair I grab my phone and can't help but go on Twitter.

I would be lying if I said the negative comments weren't getting to me. I mean if we all really thought about it... it would have made sense to have Lisa be on the show she's the MAIN DANCER of Blackpink.

Like why did I even agree to do this project?

Like why did I even agree to do this project?

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Going through another thread of comments...I can't help but feel upset. I hate this favoritism thing.

Do people really think I haven't worked hard either?

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Do people really think I haven't worked hard either?

...

Am I right to say that? 

Am I getting too spoiled at YG?

"Zhōng níng shuō nǐ yǒu máfanle" (So Jongin said you're trouble) Lay turns to raise an eyebrow at me, prompting me to put down my phone and give my attention to him

"Whaa" I open my mouth in protest but we both see my manager nodding his head in the mirror at Lay's comment

Blinking fast, "Oppa! You understand Chinese?" I ask my manager surprised while I hear Lay chuckle

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