Aera

I'm Tired

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"Don't let them in

Don't let them see

Be the good girl you always have to be

Conceal, don't feel, don't let them knowwww

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Well now they knowwwwww"

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"That was better" My vocal coach smiles at me while I nod my head.

It's now been over a week of recording Frozen and I was going to have to record the song soon.

I was nervous about it because again...I don't like working with new people too much when it came to music.

It takes me a while to be comfortable around them...but I had to suck it up for the movie.

The vocal coach has helped me out and it almost felt like I was as a trainee again.

"Should we try again from the top one more time?" 

Yawning, I nod my head and straighten out my posture

I can now officially say I've been in a funk.

I thought that was going to be a one-day thing buttt....

I'm tired and I have no excitement going into work these days.

My patience has been thin and my annoyance has peaked (everything annoys me at one point). And no I have not gotten over the photoshoot. I'm still very much upset with myself.

Opening my mouth to start singing, I stare at the wall in front of me as I sing along to the piano. But my mind is elsewhere.

I start envisioning my workout plan following this vocal practice.

Should I try and squeeze in an Instagram live after the gym?

I know Blinks are asking for it, but I did just have a long one for my birthday...

I swear Blinks are so needy, they need a Live like every week.

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Needy...

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"I need you to be more needy"

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I replay Jaehyun's words over and over

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Was I too needy?

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Did he get tired of me?

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He wanted me to be needy...but did I cross the line?

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Ugh, this is so annoying!

It irked me! I don't know what went wrong! What did I do?

or...

Was it something he did?

Ugh no, don't go there Aria!

Distract...Distract...

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What was I thinking about doing?

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"You lost the feeling towards the middle of the song but we can work on that tomorrow" My vocal coach states while I snap out of my thoughts and he ends the practice.