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Chapter 4

      River

     Nerves filled me as my father began talking, his cold voice sending shivers down my spine here and there.

    "  River, i have something very very serious to talk to you about..." he said slowly, i felt like i was on the verge of an anxiety attack as i overthink every possible bad thing that he could have called me in here for. " I don't want to ease into this conversation and make you overthink so i'm just going to say it...." He hesitated and looked over at Lucius who nodded " As you know, Lucius is a death eater..." I nodded slowly " Well a few years ago i also became a death eater... because i was highly against muggles"

     The breath caught in my throat immediately as anxiety filled throughout my body. I could see Malfoy looking at me with a worried look out of the corner of my eye but i ignored him. Thoughts of my father at death eater meetings and getting tasks from Voldemort filled my brain and i felt like i was going to throw up any second.

    " River... if you need to excuse yourself-" My father begins to say but I put my hand up to stop him.

    " Just.... explain." I say short to keep myself from having a complete break down.

     " Well..." he looked over at Malfoy then back at me. " The reason i wasn't there with you the entire summer was because the dark lord ordered me to stay at the Manor." He paused again. Knowing he had been lying to me almost my entire life made me sick to my stomach. " And... the reason i didn't want you talking to any of the Malfoy's was because i didn't want the word to accidentally get out that i was a death eater." He said again, i tried to keep myself calm but i just couldn't anymore. Tears poured out of my eyes as it became difficult to breath, Malfoy was about to say something but closed his mouth again. They all stayed silent, I wiped away my tears but they just came again.

     " I'm s- i'm sorry" i tried saying but Severus shook his head

    " There's more." My heart raced at his words, i just wanted this conversation to be over. " Blaise Zabini told the Dark Lord about you being my daughter, we tried our best to keep you a secret from him but for some reason Zabini wanted you to become a death eater." I knew the dark lord would want me to become a death eater considering my father was one. I couldn't even get words out and apparently neither could Severus because he nodded to Lucius for him to continue.

    Lucius sighs and turns to me with his hands in his lap " The Dark Lord would like to meet with you next week... he did not say why." I saw that coming but for some reason that didn't help the surprised look on my face. So much was happening at one time and i just wanted to disappear, i didn't ask for any of this to happen.

    " is that all...?" i ask looking at the ground stiffly

     " Yes...." Lucius replies nervously, I stand up and walk out of his classroom as quickly as possible. I had to get out of there before I threw up everywhere.

I ran out to the balcony and put my hands on the railing hyperventilating, i couldn't seem to catch my breath quickly enough to say anything more to them. So much happened in such a short amount of time i could barley grasp what they were saying to me.

Draco's POV

Once River ran out of the classroom Lucius looked over to Severus.

" she doesn't hate you Severus, she's just upset, give her time." He says trying to comfort him, Severus stared at his desk with a blank expression.

"he's going to make her a death eater, there's no way he wouldn't." Severus says not moving, there was a lump in my throat, i never wanted any of this to happen to her even if i tried showing i hated her.