Chances (changbin fanfic)

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Manager was waiting for me outside the arena when I get off from the car with the bags in the trunk, staff members took care of that and I ran through the door to get to the stage from the back, security let me through without any problem because they already know I'm coming.

I was able to hear their voices and screaming clearer as I was closer to the huge stage where they were performing. I ran through long main hallway passing many doors and people on the way to the stage.

"Here," I recognised Jina's voice when I got closer to the stage, she showed me where I should stand to see perfectly at them.

"Are you okay?" she asked and I hugged her softly right after. I nodded in disagreement without any word, the knot i felt in my throat didn't even let me speak up.

They were all sitting on a tall chairs, mics infront of them and the whole ocean of thousands of people with countless lights and colorful sticks, screaming and cheering for them. Yeah, I saw it before but everytime it has it own different magic. It was wonderful view, I couldn't be able to stop staring at all those people who love my boys as much as I love them.

And there he was.

Sitting in the middle, looking at the ground.

"We have a little change in the program," Chan said after a while and the crowd went crazy. They were probably just as confused as I was. Boys didn't say anything about the change in the program. I could see how Hyunjin turned his head to the back of the stage where I was standing, I moved closer in the light so he could see me clearly and his smile grew bigger. He turned back after few seconds.

"Our Changbinnie is going to sing a song 'Sorry, I love you' just by himself," he said and my knees went weak all of the sudden, cold feeling attacking my stomach. The crowd started screaming even more, which didn't make it better.

Lights on the stage were dimmed down, you could still see all of the members pretty clear, but more light was concentrated on Changbin.

The song started after few seconds but it wasn't an original, this was slowed down.

What I did to get closer to you was rather
Building a wall between us, I'm speechless

He started singing slowly and I could see how Felix, Jeongin and Hyunjin turned their head to look at me. It didn't take long for me until tears started streaming down my face uncontrollably and breathing felt heavier.

Trying to break down the wall between us just breaks my heart
While making my mind up, I missed the most important one, you

I blame myself, I blame you
I don't know whom to blame, my resent grows

Felix, Jeongin and Hyunjin probably told other members that I was there already, because all of them were suddenly looking at me, but not him. His eyes were still glued to the ground, not looking up on the crowd, because it wasn't dedicated to fans, to people who were standing in the arena. It was for me.

Crowd was quiet, listening to his deep but soft voice singing the song.
Hyunjin looked at me again giving me a sorry look, he always know how to make me feel better but with this even Hyunjin wasn't helping.

I just wanted to be with you, the two of us, toge-

His voice broke in the middle of the sentence and his head fell onto his knees. He stopped singing but music was still on, slowly stabbing my heart even more and more when I saw him sitting there totally defeated and in so much ache. I couldn't even breathe properly, it hurt with every breath. Jina was slowly caressing my back.

Boys surrounded him from the front so fans wouldn't see he was crying. From the distance I could see how much he was trembling.

I could hear "Awww" from the crowd but he didn't even flinch. Boys were still hugging him when he suddenly turned his head to my direction. Someone must've told him I was there.

He stood up, getting away from their grip and started running to my direction. I took a few steps back so the people in the front row couldn't see us.
He grabbed my waist and pushed me against his chest, letting out soft sobs. The hug he gave me was stronger than millions of words we couldn't say out loud.

"I'm so sorry," I said quietly.

"Are you really here? It's not a dream?" he asked between the sobs. I never saw him crying like that.

I could see how boys started to walking our way, crowd wasn't loud as before they were probably confused why they left and why was Changbin crying.

When Changbin heard that boys were standing behind him he let me go and let me talk to them, he knew I miss them too.

Felix was the first one who hugged me and the other joined making one big group hug. I was relieved that I finally see them after months, together with me.

"Okay give me my girl back," Changbin said after while and pulled me out of their grip, pulling me into his hug again.

They chuckled together and started smiling at us.

"How's baby?" he asked softly and put his hands on my belly.

"Perfect, already with daddy," I whispered and he kissed my forehead.

"We can perform Red lights if you want to be alone for a while, and then they could sing Drive or something different," Hyunjin said looking between me and Chan.

"I'm gonna tell the staff we're gonna switch it," Chan said and disappeared into the dark.

"We'll see you later," Seungmin smiled at me and they all disappeared onto the stage again, then telling crowd that they have another change in the program and telling that everything's okay.

"Come," Changbin said pulling me more into the back where no one was standing.

"How did you even get here?"

"Plane. 14 hours," I grinned, "I just needed to see you, I couldn't do this any longer," I said quietly, looking into his eyes.

"But you know we have tour through whole America right? This is our first stop."

"Chan said I can come with you he already spoke with manager. But it's up to you if you want me to come wi-"

"Come please," he cut me off.

"Okay love," I put both of my hands on his cheeks, wiping his tears with my thumbs.

"Can I kiss you?" he said quietly, relaxing his head into my hands.

"If you would be that kind," I chuckled and he slowly connected our lips, moving his hands on my lower back, deepening it. I could feel the emotions he put into that kiss, not wanting to move them away.

"I love you babygirl," he said after he looked into my eyes.

"I love you too baby," I said, hugging him tightly.

"I'm so sorry I let you down and I didn't trust you, I was so confused, I should never doubt your love I failed at being a good boyf-" I shut him up with another kiss.

"You're the best boyfriend in the fucking world, you did everything right, I should be the one apologising, I broke you," I said looking down at the ground.

"I promise you you're now safe, I don't care about anything else than you. You and baby are safe," he said when he grabbed my face into his hands, "I still can't believe you're here and you'll go on tour with me again. With baby," he chuckled.

"I'll annoy you for little more," I chuckled.

"I don't mind," he said and kissed me again, I could taste his salty tears on his lips, be started crying again.

"I don't believe I'm a dad," he said, another tear falling down his eye.

"The best dad, but we have a problem," I looked at him nervously.

"What?" he asked and put his hands on my belly.

"Who's gonna be a godfather?" I chuckled and his face looked like he just saw a ghost.

"That's a big problem," he smiled after while and pressed his lips againts mine.