Chances (changbin fanfic)

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"Unzip my jeans," he said quietly.

I did what he said with the tears on the edge of my eyes.

He was standing there only in his boxers.

"Put them down," he ordered, arching his neck back.

"N-no," I stuttered.

He grabbed my hair and pulled me closer to him.

"You were here with me and suddenly he was talking about you in the fucking mic and saw you kissing him? Nah. You're gonna fix that right now," he said and he pulled his boxers down, he was just standing there infront of me. It was the most disgusting thing.

"Grab it," he ordered and my hands started trembling.

"No."

"If you don't I will show him everything today I swear to god," he said aggressively.

I grabbed it into my hands and I didn't move, I was looking at the ground.

When I did he sighed loudly.

"Move your fucking hand," his voice was quiet and deep.

I slowly started moving my hand, he moaned loudly and grabbed my hair. My eyes were still glued onto the floor, tears now streaming down my face.

"Faster kitten," he moaned and I speed up a little bit.

He then grabbed my hair tighter and pushed me away from him, which caused I fell on the ground.

He put his hand on the place where mine was seconds ago, "I'll finish it and you'll watch," he said arching his head back, fast stroking his length. I quickly closed my eyes but he interrupted me, "watch!" he said and it didn't take long for him to finish into his hand, he reached into his jeans and he took a black cloth and cleaned his hand. He put on his boxers and jeans and approached me.

"You will finish it next time," he whispered into my ear.

"N-no," I mumbled, I wasn't able to speak between the sobs.

"Don't even try to talk back, because I can put that pretty little mouth to good use very quickly," he said and left me on the ground.

5/11/21
He locked us in the empty room just after I kissed Changbin watching them having a soundcheck
I had to stroke his ...
He made me watch him finish
He pushed me onto the ground and left me there alone

I locked my phone and put it back in my jeans. It took me probably 15 minutes to calm myself down until I was able to stood up.

I opened the door and I was slowly walking to the stage, the boys were still there.

I stood there, emotionless watching them when Hyunjin approached me.

"Come on the stage. Are you alright?"

"Yeah I just, it's my parents, but I will be alright," I lied and he just nodded.

I was following Hyunjin and Changbin approached me, it was like I could feel Akuma's eyes on me.

"What did he want?" he said grabbing my hand but I pulled away.

"We were cleaning up the hangers," I smiled and continued following Hyunjin who was walking towards Felix, leaving Changbin standing alone in the middle.

We stopped next to the Felix and when I turned around Changbin was talking to Akuma and my heart stopped working.

I saw how Changbin turned around to look at me. I looked back at Felix, chatting with the boys about the Europe concerts, but he was suddenly standing behind me.

"I need to talk to you," Changbin whispered into my ear and then we moved in the middle of the stage, away from the boys.

"He said you were folding chairs not cleaning up the hangers. You are lying to me?"

"Why would you ask him what we were doing? You don't trust me?" I protested, because that was the only way I could get out of this.

"What did you to?" he said quietly.

"Okay. I have a suprise for you, and we were discussing it because I can't tell it to boys and I don't know anyone else," I said but I had the feeling that he doesn't even believe what I just said.

"Oh, sorry," he said quietly, "I think you should go back to green room, I need to work," he said and the hurt in his eyes hurt mine too. He left me standing there like I did before.

I left the stage and I slowly approached their green room, entering to see Jina sitting on the couch.

"Everything's done, we can just wait now," she smiled at me and looked back into her phone.

The concert went really well, again, thousands of people cheering for them, it was lovely and the energy was even higher than two days ago even when the crowd was smaller than last time.

When they ended Changbin didn't even look at me, he just went straight to the green room to change his clothes and head to the hotel.

His rejection would hurt me, so I just joined Hyunjin's company.

I sat next to Hyunjin, feeling even more numb, Akuma's body replaying infront of my eyes, his disgusting hands, touch or even look into his black eyes. It was haunting my thoughts over and over again, until Changbin's voice interrupted me. We were alone in the room.

"Just stay with Jina next time okay?" he said quietly, grabbing my hand.

"I will try," I answered.

"What do you mean try?"

"I can't just ignore him."

"Why?" he said crossing his arms on his chest.

"Because I work for you and when he needs help and I have to help him," I said looking into Changbin's eyes. Every word hurt more and more.

"You didn't have to help him with anything, he saw that we're talking and he called you," he said, his voice deeper but his eyes couldn't fool me.

"We can talk now. He's not here,"

"So we can just talk when he's not around?

"N-no, please you're being ridiculous. You know how much I love you. How much I adore you. I want only you baby, not him. Never," I said when I stood up and hugged him.

"I love you too," he said, but I bet he can't let this go that easily.

5/11/21
I hate how I can't tell you anything baby, you know how much I love you and I don't want to touch him.
I want my Changbin.

We left the arena, heading to the hotel right away to spend our last night in Australia. Next stop is Barcelona, Spain.

When we got to the hotel Changbin took the shower alone, he wasn't really happy about it but I wasn't able to look at him naked. I needed time.

He fell asleep immediately as he layed on the bed. I closed my eyes too and tried to fell asleep when I got notification on my phone.

unknown
I'm thinking of you right now kitten

I knew exactly who it was, but how did he get my number?

Jina.

I didn't want to save his name into my phone so I let it like that.

unknown
Answer

leave me alone

unknown
I really need your help right now kitten

don't text me

unknown
Don't even think of blocking my number. That would be very bad for you and your stupid friends.
You're gonna be mine by the end of the tour. ;)

I never really believed you can hate the person to their core, hating every bone in their body to the point you wish they never existed, or to the point you're questioning your own existence in order to ease the pain you feeling.

I hate him so much.