Chances (changbin fanfic)

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"It's not mine," I whispered to myself, "why would she tell me, it's not mine," I said quietly again.

I dialed Chan's number.

"Hello?" he said after few seconds.

"Can you come-," I broke into tears, "pick me up?"

"Where are you?"

"At the a-airport," I said still crying.

"What? What are you doing there?"

"Just c-come pick me up."

"Okay just go outside. I'm coming," he said and hung up. I stood up and left the airport, not caring I just probably missed a flight I payed for.

It didn't take a long for him to come in one of the black cars we rented. He was only one in the car.

"What are you doing?" he said confused when I sat next to him.

"She's pregnant."

"What? Oh my god Binnie," he started smiling and cheering me up.

"You're fucking happy? It's not mine," I said between my teeth.

"How?"

"They probably fucked, we didn't have sex for some time now," I said. I couldn't even speak from the betrayal I felt.

"Binnie she is alone. She just told you she's pregnant and you're here? Go," he said and I looked at him surprised. I thought he would be the one who won't let me go.

"I-I don't know," I said looking down on the ground.

"You don't know? Binnie you're gonna be a dad," he said smiling widely.

"I won't," I said but my phone rang in my pocket just seconds after that.

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"Hello?" I said, tears falling down my cheeks.

I dialed his number again but he declined it.

I tried one more time before giving up.

"Changbin?"

"Is it his right?" he asked and my heart broke into pieces.

"What?"

"The baby, it's not mine. I get it. Why are you even bothering? Call him and leave me alone," he said and hung up the phone again.

I tried to call again but he declined it. Another time after that. And another right after.

I just lost him and I can't change up his mind. I can't have a baby without him. I just can't keep it when he's not around. I would be selfish if I did. I can't do it without him.

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We drove back to our hotel room in silence, I didn't answer any of the Chan's questions or any of the words he was saying. The only thing I was focusing was how the love of my life was having a baby with someone else.

I get into my room any locked the door. After week without her I decided to unpack her bag, and put my clothes in it too. But when I was tossing out clothes I found her phone. That's why she wasn't picking up and that's why she called from unknown number. I put it on the nighstand table and layed on the bed, but the curiousity didn't leave me alone. I'm not a person who is going through the phone of my partner, I trusted her with my every bit but the trust was long gone and she wasn't here. I wanted to know more. I called the boys to came into my room.

The boys came just minutes after. I wasn't able to go look into her phone alone. They didn't really approve my decision but I was more than sure I need to do it

The first thing I opened was her messages.

MESSAGES

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I'm thinking of you right now kitten

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Answer

leave me alone

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I really need your help right now kitten

don't text me

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Don't even think of blocking my number. That would be very bad for you and your stupid friends.
You're gonna be mine by the end of the tour. ;)

I read it out loud and my heart fell into my stomach.

"What the hell is it?" Seungmin asked.

I went through her gallery and I didn't find anything else, but my hands were trembling from fear. I opened another app.

NOTES

3/11/21
It will look like you want it
I will tell your fuckboy everything
I'm your master
It will drag him and his group down

5/11/21
He locked us in the empty room just after I kissed Changbin watching them having a soundcheck
I had to stroke his ...
He made me watch him finish
He pushed me onto the ground and left me there alone

5/11/21
I hate how I can't tell you anything baby, you know how much I love you and I don't want to touch him.
I want my Changbin.

He's abusing me and I can't tell him, I can't tell because he took pictures and will put it everywhere and ruin your career. I can't risk it. You're too precious to let me ruin your life.

"Tell me I'm dreaming," I said when tear dropped from my eye, but sadness and betrayal changed to uncontrollable anger. I headed to the door but Chan stopped me with his whole body.

"You need to think about it first, you can't just go there. Please," he said calmly but the anger couldn't leave.

"I'm gonna fucking kill him," I said trying to get away from Chan's grip but Minho joined Chan's hands.

"Let me fucking go," I screamed out loud but Hyunjin grabbed my face into his hands.

"Please calm down, you need to calm down and we can do something about it. Chan hyung will tell manager and he will go. Please calm down Binnie," he whispered and I calmed down a little bit, listening to his soothing voice.

"I want to hurt him, please let me go," I said when I started crying uncontrollably.

"No, you're not like that," Hyunjin said but my knees went week and I fell into his arms.

"Call her. You're dad!" Jisung shouted, "right now, call her," he said throwing my phone on me.

He said but I wasn't able to concentrate.

"I'm a dad," I whispered, tears streaming downmy face as I said and dialed her number from her house phone.

'The number you have dialed is not available'

"No," I panicked and tried again.

'The number you have dialed is not available'

"Give me your phone right now," I said to Hyunjin and he dialed her number for me.

'The number you have dialed cannot be reached'

"No, please," I said falling onto the ground.