Control lili

one last time

I was a liar
I gave in to the fire
I know I should've fought it
At least I'm being honest
Feel like a failure
'Cause I know that I failed you
I should've done you better
'Cause you don't want a liar

I tried lisa so many times to hear my voice of heart who was screaming to me to get back here and kissed you intense as possible to be with you.

But look at me now how much of a looser and pathetic shit I began to be.

I was liar to myself then how can i be faithful to you, right???

And I know, and I know, and I know
She gives you everything
But, boy, I couldn't give it to you
And I know, and I know, and I know
That you got everything
But I got nothing here without you

I saw it in your eyes the day you came korea to terminate your contract.But I can see you're here for her not for me.

It pained me that you finally let go of me fully and you understand who was it for you.

The looks you gave chaeng in every video of both of you I get the message loud and clear.

She can give you everything that I was hardly ever imagine of.The smiles you both have when you both were eachother kills me.

I wish one last time I could have you.

So one last time
I need to be the one who takes you home
One more time
I promise, after that, I'll let you go
Baby, I don't care if you got her in your heart
All I really care is you wake up in my arms
One last time
I need to be the one who takes you home

I want you lisa.
I want you lisa.
I don't know if god ever exist but I am praying everytime that he'll give you back to me just for a day I wanted to be in your embrace.

I wanted to feel secure and safe in your arms.

Even though I know she already replaced me in your heart but lili can I be with you atleast for a day???

I don't deserve it
I know I don't deserve it
But stay with me a minute
I swear I'll make it worth it
Can't you forgive me?
At least just temporarily
I know that this is my fault
I should've been more careful

The Drama I put is finally over.People can now clearly see how much of bitch and hypocritical women I was.

Kai and jiyong thrown me away very second I come out of my closet.

Six months of therapy I finally got that I was bisexual.I was love in love with you.

But look at me how I used to break you apart and now I am breaking apart.I don't deserved any of your care or tears but can't I have one last moment with you???

I wanted to cherished that final moment so that I can be clear in my journey.

And I know, and I know, and I know
She gives you everything
But, boy, I couldn't give it to you
And I know, and I know, and I know
That you got everything
But I got nothing here without you, baby

So one last time
I need to be the one who takes you home
One more time
I promise, after that I'll let you go
Baby, I don't care if you got her in your heart
All I really care is you wake up in my arms
One last time
I need to be the one who takes you home (la li he)

I know I should've fought it
At least I'm being honest (yeah)
But stay with me a minute
I swear I'll make it worth it, babe
'Cause I don't wanna be without you

(Oh)
So one last time
I need to be the one who takes you home (takes you home, babe)
One more time
I promise, after that I'll let you go
Baby, I don't care if you got her in your heart (babe)
All I really care is you wake up in my arms (wake up in my arms)
One last time
I need to be the one who takes you home (yeah)

One last time
I need to be the one who takes you home

Look at me now listening to heart broken and pathetic songs which is similar to my karma.

My dad screamed at me knowing I was queer.he shut me off.
He asked me to marry his friend's son so that my sins can revert.Then I actually see what was my problem was.

I was become very much like to my dear father who wanted to have machinist son but instead he had me.I become homophobic just like him.

But this time I announced that I won't listen to him and do whatever I wished to.

He slapped me but ella cursed him way more and left house with me.I am very much sort with my feelings.

But it's too late isn't it???

I should confessed to you instead of letting you go.I should ve chase after you than ran away from truth.

I am sort with everything but still my heart is yearning for you.

I know you have her but for last time please let me Have you???